Never Again Vol 3

Discussion in 'Uncategorized Reboot Logs' started by Relationship Rebooter, Nov 21, 2018.

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    Here we are again ! I’ve been trying to quit porn for about 1.5 years now.
    2 summers ago I realized I had a problem. I’ve had countless relapses however I’ve beat it once when holding a streak 45 days. However due to unfortunate situations I relapsed. I suffer from PIED. My erections are weak, I have trouble maintaining an erection, I’m desensitized to real sex. I’m motivated once again and have relapsed and most importantly I know how and why. It’s all about building those positive reinforcements.
     
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    I’m going to be going hardmode for about 2 weeks and then just PMO restricted. I will continue to engage in sex. I am also here to help everyone who has questions. I’ll drop below triggers and emergency NoFap methods.

    TRIGGERS :
    • Edging Absolutely Terrible.
    •Boredom
    •Too much free time
    •Staying up too late
    •Taking smartphone into shower
    •Visiting adult actors instagrams


    METHODS ;
    •Removing myself from being alone as much as possible.
    •Pushups - Make myself so exhausted I don’t have the energy to relapse.
    •Downloading Innapropriate Content blocker on IPhone.
    •Making Porn as inaccessible as possible.
     
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    Day 1
    -Woah I’m happy to be starting this process again after relapse. I felt motivated today. Since I relapsed yesterday urges came on and my family left to the store and left me alone for 3 1/2 hours. My thoughts quickly went to my PMO routine room towel lotion video and have at it. Instead I put my favorite music on and did pushups until my arms were spaghetti noodles.
     
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    Day 2
    -Well I made it haha. Urges weren’t present today but then again I’m getting sick so I feel groggy and during my worst PMO phase i’d PMO even when sick. I really hope I get better I have work to do. On another note, take it one day at a time guys. Often looking all the way to day 90 can feel discouraging because you’re only at Day 1, this can be detrimental to a positive outlook on your recovery.
     
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    Day 3
    -Well I’m still sick, I feel a bit better no urges today probably because I have little energy. My brain did drift on and wanted to look up an adult actor name and just click images and as soon as I see something explicit it’s like an oops moment. Brain tried to trick me so instead of even opening my browser I just shut off my phone and did some school work before college finals.
     
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    Day 4
    - Well I forgot to login so in short I took a hot shower did some work and worked on overcoming this cold. Felt a lot better saw a movie with family. No urges so far
     
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    Day 5
    - I’m feeling really motivated I hope this feeling doesn’t go away. After all EVIL PMO strikes when you’re weak, not when you’re strong but I’ll be ready. I’m starting to feel more in the moment and slight lift on brain fog. I feel generally happier knowing I’m working towards a better me.
     
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    Day 6
    -I’ve overcome my cold finally and I feel better libido is slightly higher. Brain fog isn’t there that much. Urges are really non existent right now. However I’m still having focus issues which I’m not sure if it is because diet sleep or beginning NoFap. Well see trying to resolve that issue.
     
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    Day 7
    -Mini Milestone here first week down for the count. 3 More and were pretty much at a month. I believe I can do it slight urges. Sex Drive is high, haven’t had sex for like a week now. Feeling good so far
     
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    Day 8
    -Well went pretty well I don’t reallt have urges to view porn. Had healthy sex and ended up pulling out and finishing on her body using my hand for like 5 seconds. I don’t think it’s that bad in terms of reboot tbh but def won’t make it a habit. Don’t want to use my hand for anything sexual at all.
     
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    Day 9
    -Today was great day, semester is finishing up and engaged in some sexual activity and regained sensitivity and was able to finish no problem. PIED is quick in healing due to past reboots. I’m on the right track I’ll remain vigilant though. One day at a time overall happier and more energy.
     
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    Day 10
    - Time is flying this reboot is zooming by I feel a lot healthier a lot more energy way less anxious now. Although at times anxiety still there but no where near what it used to be. Sex again and sensitivity is constantly increasing and easier to reach orgasm while still being able to satisfy partners almost 2 weeks !
     
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    Day 11
    - One day closer to 2 weeks. Taking it one day at a time helps instead of focusing on 90 days at one time. Also staying away from NoFap forums is healthy. Don’t become obsessed with reboot or you’ll relapse in my opinion. Easier to beat an addicition which isn’t on your mind. Create a life beyond NoFap don’t let NoFap become your most important objective and way to pass time. Not too many urges kind of weird lost the urge to view porn and masterbate. Not complaining life is getting better.
     
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    Day 12
    -Today ultimately was not a good day. Kicked my ass. Arguing with spouse. Resurfaced childhood abuse. Family in debt. Social media had more porny images than ever before. As if evil is sticking its hand out welcoming me to a painful past. I did not give up. I won’t relapse tired of it. Tired of relapsing then saying okay this time forsure done forever. No more excuses. Tired of the old me new me has been patient. Expressing my emotions no holding in tears it isn’t healthy. Expressing my emotions healthy, keeping my head. Suppressing feelings has been a big down fall bc eventually your emotions just hold a big space in your physical body and boom all bottled up they explode. I figure when you have a small leaky roof if you can’t patch it keep throwing the little drops out the door instead of letting the bucket overflow and flood your house. I am becoming a better person journaling helps. I express feelings healthier and don’t spend so much time angry, even when I argue I refrain from yelling or becoming physical and not abusive but no clenching fists or hitting and throwing things. I’m making progress. I prepared myself for this. I said it once before on this thread. Porn doesn’t attack when you’re your strongest, it attacks you at your weakest. Boy am I at my weakest point right now but only up that’s forsure.
     
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    Day 13
    - Big Bounce Back Baby! No relapse over here glad I didn’t yesterday so I wasn’t worth losing the happiness I had today. Having great sex although risky bc of pregnancy. Got trained for my new job today. Applying for my license and I’ll soon be able to diet and bulk up in the gym. Keep pushing forward I had a shitty ass day thinking about relapse and then the next days it’s bounce back time and grind. Urges hit yesterday willed myself not to it doesn’t lead me anywhere and robs me of this amazing feeling of discipline. I really think this PMO is a thing of the past 2 weeks is early to be saying this but I’m really confident I’m done.
     
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    Day 14
    - Well I made two weeks since I was drowning in sorrow and failure. Now I’m full of energy back to my happiness self. I’m really a bubbly and loud person without being obnoxious haha. However porn dampened that and created a person who in the worst time of my PMO addiction I can remember 1 high school junior year id go to school and come home lay in bed at 5 and fall asleep at 7 and wake up the next day and go to school from 6-3. Pretty sad and you know fitting PMO for a cool 30 mins before showering. I was depressed quiet developed social anxiety I felt anxious dirty and nervous constantly for no reason. I felt like I was as small as can be bathing in negative energy and a pixelated fake reality. Urges are here and there but I won’t give in. Every time I feel like relapse I think about how I feel after is it worth it ? And I leave whereveer I am and workout or focus on a new task. I can’t wait til I hit 30 days. I just got off work and I feel motivated. I’m looking forward to this future I’ve created.
     
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    Day 15
    - Well past reboots adding up with a few relapse I’ve beaten PIED once again I’ve had sex about 5 times this past week with my gf and orgasm in a reasonable time. Now it’s onto the next step of just staying committed and stacking on the streak day by day. Although I accidentally flickered my remote sounds stupid yes but scrolling the channels and softcore porn came on and honestly watched for 10 Seconds got a boner and snapped out of it and said fuck this shit not again. Nothing major keeping strong old me would’ve just binged that on how hungry my brain is for porn. Starve porn starve !
     
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    Day 16
    -Days are flying by I stated my new job. Semester is ending on a good note for college. Sex is amazing with gf right now it’s like everyday. My erections are so much stronger than ever I love it and so does she lol. Urges for porn are hitting strong these past few days nothing to be ashamed of sex drive going crazy right now evil part of my brain that’s starving for porn wants me to fall and be sad for it. No thanks I’ll continue to have great sex feel confident and be happy in general.
     
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    Day 17
    - Almost 3 weeks and I’m feeling great no more fog. Urges strong as ever ish. They’re not pounding but they linger menacingly. I’ll keep going and fighting. Me and my gf are having sex like everyday now that my erections are so strong. I’m feeling great and horny. Confidence is booming.
     
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    Day 18
    -Good day spent most of it with family. Got the urges constantly but very manageable. I feel like I really manifested my thoughts on day 1 of this reboot into existence that I really did not want this life of porn anymore. Going strong but will remain vigilant and cautious.
     

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