need to write - journal

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    It has been over 24 hours so I thought I'd make a journal. The first day is always the easiest and the hardest but I got through it. I don't have much to say today and I might not most days but I'll make sure to post anyways.

    Let's go!
     
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    Day 2

    Day 2 wasn't too bad. No major urges. I have noticed my dreams getting more arousing. In the past this has lead to relapse, so I have to be careful.
     
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    Day 3

    Nothing particularly eventful happened.
     
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    Day 4

    I had some mild urges at various points day 4. Nothing too intense but I know it'll only get worse from here. Around day 5 is usually when the urges get really bad.
     
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    Day 5

    This day was tough. I came very close to masturbating (without porn). But I made it through. I know it'll only get harder from here but I believe I am ready. Day 6 here I come!
     
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    Keep it up!
     
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    Day 6

    This day was extremely difficult. I thought about relapsing for a very large part of the day. Luckily I wasn't home for most the day and was able to control myself. Another day down, time to keep on going
     
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    Day 7

    One week over! This day was sure difficult and this is usually when the real challenge begins. But I exercised and that got rid of the urges, at least most of them.
     
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    Day 8

    It was surprisingly easy today. Some days are just like that. However, I know other days will be the opposite. Just got to be careful.

    But for today, just enjoy the ease and be thankful.
     
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    Day 9

    It was not hard. No major urges came. Right now before sleep I feel a little horny but I feel more tired than horny so I think I'll be alright.
     
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    Day 10

    This day, at least the second half, has been somewhat difficult. Even right now I'm thinking about fapping to this girl I saw (I work with but don't really know) who is very beautiful. But I think I'll be able to manage this urge.

    I'm just worried that it'll only get worse from here. This is where the real challenge begins. And hopefully, this is where the real results begin as well
     
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    Day 0

    Yep. After 11 days I'm back to 0. I went 3 times in the course of an hour. The last one I wasn't even horny. But I forced it because I craved to cum. I figure now I can do one of 2 things.

    One) beast myself up about this and think of myself as forever a loser.

    Two) say "it happened" learn from my mistakes, and keep on moving.

    I'll choose the second one
     
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    update:

    I masturbated 3 times since my last post earlier today. This is clearly an addiction and should never be taken lightly
     
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    Day 1

    I felt so sexual drained the whole day, probably do to excessive masturbation the day before. I did get super hard from this girl I saw but it didn't give me the urge to fap. Memories of lots of the porn I watched the day before would pop up in my head throughout the day but I managed to handle it.
     
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    Day 2

    Yesterday was pretty emotional charged for me for many reasons. I did not let that lead me to relapse though I was tempted. Time now for day 3
     
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    Day 3

    Three days done by quick. I did everything I needed to do too to pre urges and not relapse this day. At night in bed I got really close to relapse but I stopped myself from touching myself even a little.
     
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    Day 4

    I can't believe it's been 4 days already. It feels like no time has past, this has been easier then normal. I think I'm really starting to get the hang of NoFap and I'm hoping this time is really the time I complete the 90 days. Maybe I shouldn't get ahead of myself but I'm feeling confident.

    I did have a brief urge to relapse when I got too bed but that seems to happen a lot. I need to work on that. In fact, I'll make a thread now asking what I should do and get help.
     
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    Day 5

    Five days in and I'm doing great. I seem to be able to stay productive to the point where I don't feel like relapsing. However, I keep bringing flashes of old porn clips and the blood rushes to my penis and a piece of me starts saying "do it". But I don't cave in and I won't cave in.
     
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    Day 6

    I seem to keep running into the same challenge. The day is relatively easy but the night right before sleep gets very difficult. I compensate for this by
    1) Not using my phone in bed
    2) Only going to bed when I'm really tired.

    So fat this has been working really well but I'm not sure how long it'll last for. Also there is this old video that keeps replaying in my head throughout the day. It's the same video and it keeps giving me a strong urge to watch it. I haven't caved I though.
     
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