Hey people. I'm 27 years old and I'm trying to quit watching porn and masturbating. I relapsed like 8 days ago which is when I joined the site and i just did again and I feel terrible about it. I need some kind of help. I talked to my doctor about PIED recently and I'm going to be seeing a counselor pretty soon. I think I'm a fairly attractive guy but I've still only been with one girl my whole life and we dated for five years. The PIED was an issue in that relationship as well and still greatly affects my confidence in pursuing women. I'm hyperactive and sociable with people I'm comfortable with but I do get social anxiety. I don't know. People have seemed shocked when I tell them I've only been with one girl. I just want to be in a relationship with a girl I like and be able to make love to her. For real. I've eliminated all other vices in my life. I don't use drugs, I quite drinking (which I had a problem with) and I quit smoking. I'm a college student getting good grades. All I do is work and study. Right now, I have a huge crush on a girl I work with and I told her I'm infatuated with her and I want to date her and she said she had a boyfriend but we could go out if anything ever happened. The girl drives me so crazy but she hasn't been giving me any attention since then and I just give her her space and it just drives me nuts and makes me depressed. So I woke up again and felt upset about it and jerked off again. And now I'm back to square one. I hate porn. I'm just thinking about that girl and how I'll probably never have her and even if I did I won't be able to have sex with her because my fucking dick is broken. Anyways, I really need to stop. I don't want this shit in my life anymore. My heart is so heavy. I need love in my life. I just need some support. I keep going about a week and relapsing and it's back to the beginning. I don't have any problem during the day. It seems to be the worst when I wake up in the middle of the night. Any suggestions? Been watching porn since I was probably 10 years old. Tried to lose my virginity when I was 14 and couldn't get an erection. That's when I first realized something was wrong. And I can't stop thinking about this girl and it's making me feel hurt and jealous and frustrated. Sooo... yeah. Any support or input would be wonderful. I need to get to sleep though. Gotta be up early. I can't believe I fucked up again.