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Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Antiquedentures, Sep 11, 2016.

  1. Antiquedentures

    Antiquedentures Fapstronaut

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    My name is Jacob and am 17 years old. I've tried many things to get over this addiction, some good (spending more time on productive things that I love, excersising, taking cold showers) and some bad (punishing myself for messing up). What I haven't done is told people about this problem because of my shame (all of my friends and family are very conservative Christians). I found this community and have looked around on it for a while, it has already been inspirational. I hope that joining it will keep me accountable.

    I want to get over this addiction because:
    -One day I want to fall in love, be a committed partner, and raise children
    -I want to see women as human rather than as objects
    -I want my confidence back
    -I want to focus on the activities that I love like I used to (math, music, socializing)
    -I want to be a good example for my younger siblings and for the impoverished kids that my family and I visit weekly here in Mexico
    -As a Christian, I want to honor God with my thoughts

    At around 13 I was exposed to porn. For about half a year I kept returning to it, but I never masterbated. Eventually my father caught me. He helped me get over it quickly by taking away electronics from me for half a year.

    For the next few years life was great. I had many crushes, developed a love for math, and began getting far ahead in school. At 15 I developed a crush on one of my classmates. It was a wholesome crush... I did not objectify her. After a few months I finally got the guts to tell her that I liked her. She never talked to me again.

    I was devastated for months afterward. Thankfully I moved to Mexico (which has been fantastic) and I got distracted. But around a year ago I was reminded of her consistently. I got depressed. My "remedy" for getting over her was porn.

    A year later and I can't get pictures of women out of my head. My focus is deteriorating. I don't know if I'll pass my online Physics and Calculus III classes. My crushes are much less wholesome. I can barely look women in the eyes (even ones I find unattractive).

    I need to get over this. I need this community to keep me accountable. I am too ashamed to tell my dad. Even though he was gracious last time, our relationship has deteriorated since then.

    An hour before I wrote this I messed up again. I'm still physically hurting from it. I can't stand this life style. I want a girlfriend, but can't in good conscience get one in this condition. I want to focus on academics like I used to. I want my former relationship with my parents.

    Thanks for reading, writing this alone has already helped me!
     
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  2. NewLife101

    NewLife101 Fapstronaut

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    Welcome to the NoFap community. I've been here for 3 days and it's helping more than I would have ever thought. I've been reading and commenting. I have started a daily journal in the Reboot Log area which helps me be accountable to myself.
    You should be proud of yourself for joining NoFap to get yourself where you want to be in life.
     

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