Need help!

The problem with any serious addiction is that if you relapse, you will probably _really_ relapse. I used to be addicted to smoking marijuana, I quit for 8 years and then I tried it again, thinking that I was now older and wiser and probably could handle healthy use of marijuana. The reality couldn't be more different: I was hooked again in a few days and back to smoking 5 joints a day in a matter of 3 weeks. I was totally out of control again. (I quit after that 3 weeks and that was that, still I wouldn't want to repeat that.)

So, my suggestion is... just don't

Your reasoning doesn't really make sense to me: you're going to watch porn again and then reset to really experience the benefits of nofap? What can you probably gain here? In my humble opinion you have - on the contrary - a lot to loose.

But if you believe this is an experiment worth doing, by all means. Nobody is going to stop you.

 

It’s analogous to hitting your head against the wall repeatedly because it feels so good when you stop. Makes very little sense.

 

Glad to hear you didnt relapse.

We are far more clever than we think, and can easily convince ourselves of anything, to justify anything. I am with others and see no other reason to even start back. We always rationalize "just one time" or "one last time and that will be it i am done", and then we say the same thing the next time, and the next time. Then we get angry at ourselves because it was only supposed to be one time, now its been 10. So we say screw it, we are too far now, might as well keep going. So your "one time" is the key to the door, back to the place you have worked so hard to get away from. If you were homeless, living under a bridge, and you worked and bought yourself a little camper, or got an apartment, would you go live under that bridge again?

we're no different than the meth addicts in our addiction.

 

Change your mentality: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/seven-days-now-what.183685/#post-1566190

 

I've quit quite a few things in my life. In all cases I occasionally slipped up and relapsed while thinking that this time it would be a different story. I assumed because I was older, had already quit once and felt so healthy I was safe from the miserable lifestyle I had previously led.

I was, in all cases, wrong. You will go back to the exact same, worst case scenario you were in. There is exactly zero chance that you'll somehow have a "managed" existence fapping. There are people out there that can handle it. You, me and the rest of the people on nofap are not among them. Unfortunately this is a fact for life.

 

Let's stay that way. You are doing great.