Need continuous stimulation for erection

Hi, I am new here. I hope I m posting in the right section. I have been MOing for long long time. Probably from the age of 8. I don’t know why but I was never interested in relationship that much. Anytime I would see a hot girl, I had always preferred to masturbate on her rather than going to her & asking her out. Now when I m thinking to start a relationship with a girl I like, I decided to test myself. And bang, No matter how erotic my thoughts are or how erotic video/ picture i m having at my desktop, I can’t get a hard on. I would only get hard via physical stimulation. Once I get hard, if I stop the physical stimulation, my erection goes away in around 15 seconds. Also, I always used my left hand while masturbation, may be thats why my penis has bent towards left. (This is just my guess. If I try to get hard without physical touch, I feel really aroused but won’t get any erection. Instead my penis would just bend in left direction.) I used to start masturbation without getting hard on. (This could be another reason but again its just my guess)

I get morning wood daily (80% erection). Never felt pain while masturbation or ejaculating. My age is 31 and BMI is normal. No heart related issues. But I have poor digestion system. I am a virgin.

I have met a well known urologist. He said don’t bother about the bend, if u r getting morning wood then there is no physical problem. He seemed pretty confident but didn’t do any tests.

I could not find similar thread here but was able to find one on YBOP. That guy was told that he is having PIED.

To summarize:

1. MOing for around 23 years. Don’t need porn for that. Always used left hand.

2. Used to masturbate without getting hard on.

3. Masturbation frequency: 3-4 times a day

4. Need physical stimulation to get a hard on.

5. Can’t maintain erection for more than 15 seconds without continuous stimulation.

6. No injury on penis or surroundings. No serious illness or medication history.

7. Can get arousal easily just by few thoughts or visuals but no erection. Penis would bend in left.

8. I think my testicles are bit loose. They would become tight immediately after passing stool or farting.

9. Can excessive masturbation cause infertility in future? Internet says no but my frequency was way too high. Any thoughts?

10. If anyone has experienced this scenario, is it possible to have sex with this 15 seconds erection?

I am thinking to start 90 days hard mode. But can anyone advise if they know whats going on with me. I want to believe my urologist but does daily morning wood confirms there is no physical problem? Any advise would be a great help.

Please excuse the long post but I am a bit confused and hoping for some help.

 

@D.J. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?[/QUOTE]

I have made few small changes like:
1. I have brought my PC in a common area now. though I don't need porn to masturbate, still I would like to eliminate that risk.
2. I have made a time table. I stay at home only to have breakfast or dinner. Apart from that may be only for an hour or so just to check few PIED related forums.
3. I have started to socialize more with people.
4. I am trying to find some kind of meditation which can help. If someone can advise that would be great!
5. I don't know if it counts, but I have changed my diet completely. I would say I eat more erection friendly food. I have limited junk food on any one day of week.
6. Exercise is not an option for me as I am working in 12 hrs shifts and it keeps getting changed. I would rather prefer medidation. Just trying to find out right methods.

I want to continue on 90 days hard mode. I know I have just started but I think I can do it.
My main problem is depression. thats mainly because of the questions and worries I have mentioned in my original post. (like infertility, possibility of having sex ever). If one doubt goes away, other one pops up in my mind.
I know I just need to dust it and move on but its so difficult.