Need advice

Hi!

So I wanted to ask is there something wrong with me. I'm 24 and my first two times did not go too well.

Basicly I was a virgin and wanted to get rid of that status. So I met this 30+ year old woman online and hooked up with her. I did not find her much attractive. She gave me head and I fingered her until she squirted. I tried to go further but could not get it fully hard.

Similar thing happend with the other woman who was 30+ year old. I basicly thought that I had a thing for older women. I was 20-21 year old during those times.

I'm on day 14 of no PMO and it is going great.

So are these signs of PIED? I have watched P since teens and have slowed down watching that stuff for 2-3 years now. Prior to that in my teens I used to watch porn daily.

Other things during both of those times I had not slept well. The thing which could of been reason of me not getting hard with those women is because I did not really cared about them , found them that attractive or neither I had any emotional connection to them.

I think also because those were technically my first times I could of been nervous but during those situations I did not really feel the nerves.

Also It could of been that I was not really attracted that much to older women and need to stick with girl more of my age.

Prior to starting NoFap I could get hard with fapping, with and without porn and I get morning wood not daily but when I get a good nights sleep.

Since those times I have not met up with any girls since been focusing on fixing my studying. Also I have this thought about what if it happends the next time too.

During both of those situations I did not make a big deal about it but actually joked about it and said that ''my dick needs to get to know you a bit more first''.

 

Yeah I will try to not think about it and next time get to know the girl more and not rush with it. Next one will be more my age someone that I actually care about. My reason for hooking up with these older women was because when I used to watch porn I used to like the Milf category.


I will continue with NoFap and no PMO. Nope I have not had any fantasies about same sex neither find same sex attractive. I mean if I see a good looking actor in movies I can admit that someone is good looking but there is no sexual context to it. I guess the problem with those times were that it was too planned out. I did not know those women, did not have emotional bond to them and I was not that attracted to them.

I guess those two times told me that random hookups from online were not my thing really and older women neither.

 

Gotcha will do. I think it was also because I did not find those two women particulary hot. Also it was two of my first times and I was not too comfortable with those women since I did not know them well.