Hi everyone. I'm 24 years old looking for some new friends or people to talk to. I'm pretty much a loner. I lost my best friend in 2016. Things kind of went downhill for me since then. I even tried to get back with a friend who I have known for about 10 years now. We never seem to have the relationship last to long. It's been an unhealthy one anyhow. I admit I'm quite weird. I'm at day 1 for my rebooting. I try to do these things alone and it does me no good. I remember coming to this site 3-5 years ago. I remember they said you could have a recount ability partner. I'm not sure if they still do that, but if they do, I'm looking for one. I'm not one who believes in any one religion so if one tries to help me in a religious sense, I will not reply to you. I've been a Christian in the past and no longer find the support nor help I need to prosper myself. The feelings of guilt and imperfection made me feel worse. It drove me to suicide. I take things from a different perspective now. I don't look at sex as abnormal or a sin. It's all a natural part of life to me. It's just the feelings and unwanted desires that arise when I fap that bother me. If I could fap without any desires or feelings, it wouldn't bother me. Unfortunately, I cannot do that as I watch porn, and have many unwanted feelings and fantasies which I cannot seem to rid my mind of.