Need a Female perspective

Before nofap I would always settle for less with women. Didnt matter if they didnt really love me, all that mattered is that they stay with me so I wouldnt be lonely.

Settling for less is the old me, the new me is about giving it all but also getting it all in return.

I will never settle for less anymore.

 

Difference is that my friend actually gives a crap about me, she just doesnt like me like a man.

A hired actress would pretend to care.

Im already over the fact we will never be anything more than friends.

 

I do trust in the universe, and I didn't give up easily, I wasted two years of my life hoping for the impossible, but it taught me a lot.

Having genuine feelings, being true, faithful, loyal, loving, caring, means absolutely nothing when it comes to love.

All that one needs is that spark, if she wanted to have sex with me, thats all it would take to be her boyfriend.

Its a hard life lesson, but I wont make the same mistake twice.

If a woman doesn't want me, I'll just accept it and move on.

Life's too short to waste time in a place where you are unwanted.

 

I don't particularly think theres something wrong with me, but I am fully aware of my efforts and the result was the same, so it didn't really mattered what I did, her priority was attraction, and she didnt feel it for me.

Perhaps here is we I seperate myself with her in persoective, I don't need to be sexually attracted to someone to find them appealing, but perhaps her thoughts are one dimensional as in "If this guy doesn't make me horny then he's not worth it for a relationship".

I on the other hand can change the way I look at someone if I get to know her enough, changing my perspective.

If she doesnt deem me as worthy I simply wont waste time hoping she changes her mind, she had plenty of time to get to know me and nothing changed.

 

Well, so I guess I have an update.

Last night I was talking to her and she started to joke around saying what it be like if we were roommates.

During the conversation she mentioned that she would cook in her underwear in front of me because she knew I wouldn't do anything to her since we're like "Brothers". I guess at this point I got tired of hearing that, and this is what I said...

"I feel great about being your best friend, and I think we can have a great friendship for the rest of our lives. But what you said, about is being like brothers, I need to tell you that despite you seeing me as a brother, I do not see you the same way, I see you as a man would see a woman. I just hope that you understand that even if were just friends, that doesnt take away the fact that I'm a man."

She basically said Im right and apologized.

It feels good to be honest for once.