Today, I had a long and intense discussion with my girlfriend. It seems like she still strugles with my problem of PMO despite that it is realy a long time ago. I can understand her. She urged me to search a real accountability partner which I will finaly do tomorrow. Afterwards I was exhausted and went to bed. She loves me and I do not want to hurt her in such a way. May god help us.
Today, I finaly met a friend of mine who is willing to be my accountability partner. We had a good time and talked alot. I think it is a good idea to have someone to talk to if there are some problems. In the evening I managed to pray a while.
The weekend was exhausting but great. I went to a church conference and had a good time. Despite I had much to do and help there I could listen to sermons and worship.
Today, I met my girlfriend and we had a long walk through the snow. We talked alot. I love her. Besides that I was tired in the evening I still prayed a while. I was a beautiful day. Thank you god.
I met my prayer group today. We had a pleasent time and talked alot about Jesus and that he is our brother. In the evening there was enough time for me to pray. Since a while I have no urge for PMO anymore. I do not think that it is completely gone but it is nice to have a bit peace.
Today, I had very much to do at work. In the evening I was exhausted and a bit depressed. Nothing serious, I just need some time to relax and focus on god. Otherwise I might fail. But I trust him that he will be with me, always.
Today, I still was a bit tired. Me and my girlfriend listend to a sermon. In the evening I went earlier to bed to have some extra sleep.
Everything back to normal. Today, I had enough time to study the bible a bit more deeply. It was very interesting and refreshing. Thank you god.
Today, I listend to a sermon via internet and in the evening I prayed a while. No signs for PMO. Thank god.
The day was quite normal. I visited some good friends and afterwards my girlfriend. We had a pleasent time. In the evening I managed it again to pray to god.
The weekend was nice in general. I visited my father as he had his birthday. It was good to see my family again. On the otherhand I had to fight a bit against PMO as I was a bit tired and maybe had a bit too much spare time.
Today, I had much to do at work. In the evening I was exhausted. I also visited my girlfriend and we also had to plan the next months togehter. Afterwards I was able to pray to god for a while. The temptations are gone for now. But I had no time to think about them anyways.
I met my girlfriend today and we had a long talk about ourself and our relationship. I think it is good to have this from time to time as you always have to invest something in a relationship and there is so much to learn about your partner. In the evening I was able to pray a while and I had a pleasent time with god.
Today, I had much to do at work. But the work was fun and I made some good progress. So this is fine. Afterwards I visited some good friend and I helped him with some issues. In the evening I read the bible and prayed a bit. No signs for PMO.
I had a nice weekend. Went to the birthday party of my girlfriend. I also had a good time with my family. In the end, I could manage it to pray in the evening.
Today, I had much to do at work but it was fun. After work, I met my girlfriend and we went together ot our prayer group. It is good to meet some friends there and share our beliefes. In the evening I could pray a while and read the bible.
Another day gone. I met my girlfriend and we joined for preparing our marriage. In the evening I read the bible and prayed for a while.