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My Story with OCD

For Fapstronauts who are disciples of Christ

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  1. Reptile1527

    Reptile1527 New Fapstronaut

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    I have extreme OCD, it's borderline crippling. I have had porn addictions left, right, and center. My OCD started when I was 4, it started with the obsession of urination, as in I thought I had to go all the time. I started praying, then suddenly it faded away. But the OCD came back later in life though, my OCD convinced me that my life was a lie and that there was no afterlife. It was bad, it went away and evolved into sadistic forms, such as killing my pets and etc. During this time, I turned to porn. I would watch porn anytime I got the chance, I was only in 3rd or 4th grade. I escalated my porn interests. I noticed this and had HOCD because of this. I stopped looking at porn, it went away over time. I've had girlfriends, I was quite the "womanizer" For a while. But about 4 months ago, I was going through another porn addiction. And I woke up one morning and the thought "what if I'm gay" Popped into my mind. I knew this was false, but it still made me feel ill and scared. I still have this, it still bothers me. Checking, ruminating, doubting, and scared constantly. I am a 16 year old lad, who's currently in love with a girl. But my OCD tells me otherwise. I've left religion in 5th grade, and I turned to Satanism for an exit. But I realized that everything was false in Satanism and that the demons were liars, so I left. That was a year ago. I now need help from God, to save me from this wretched existence I currently live. I need help, and I hope God may save me from this pain.
     
  2. The Wrestler

    The Wrestler Fapstronaut

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    To clarify a point, who diagnosed you with OCD?
     
  3. Brother, you are seriously oppressed with demons, don't worry, so was I, a lot of Christians are, Porn is one demon, masturbation is another and OCD another. The concerning fact is you have dabbled in satanism so this must be dealt with and is a more powerful demon. I have learnt a lot about the deliverance ministry as I have been set free before and it forms part of my testimony, however I was not careful in maintaining my deliverance and so I fell again with porn and masturbation and gave the demons direct access again. The enemy is very crafty at keeping Christians in a whirlwind of deception and clouding our thoughts with pornography and separated from freedom and a life that Christ wants you to live. You are also being deceived through OCD and satanism.
    Because you have been involved with satanism you have opened a serious door in hell and invited a powerful demon which has access 24/7 to you, your mind and heart until you invite Jesus to kick it out completely. My advice is to ask some brothers (mature and experienced Christians full of faith) to be a part of your deliverance and cast these spirits out. If you don't know anyone then pray that God would lead you to find the right people to help.
    I was at my deliverance seminar and one of the men had made a pact with satan, he had to leave the congregation and be delivered in another room because this demon will often manifest itself in superhuman strength. The man was set free, though he began making a fist and was going to uppercut the men delivering him, however Jesus is stronger and bound the demon and kicked it out.


    My advice would be to watch this video for some research and then seek some mature Christians in your church to ask to be delivered from what you have in faith.



    God Bless
     

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