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|| My story , 31 days || (Self Improvement)

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by LiveAnAwesomeLife, Jul 9, 2015.

  1. LiveAnAwesomeLife

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    Tip : One occasion is better than Masturbation .

    [ This is going to be a long one . So are you sure you want to read this? haha ]


    So I'm 18 years old, I live in India, my height is 6ft and good looking, thats what people have told me always...haha
    But rather I consider myself as a good looking loser!!

    Well to start, my addiction with PORN and stuff. I remember I was in 4th grade probably 8-9 years old was the first time I saw porn. Actually all older guys from my building were watching it.. me and some of my friends of same age went there and they showed us that stuff. To be really frank I could not understand wtf was going on, so basically that was the first time I saw it, but could not understand what it was and soon forgot about it.

    I got my first phone when I was in 7th grade around 12 years of age.
    Thats when and how I got access to internet. I did not know much what porn exactly was, just knew the word sex. So I remember searching for sex word on google, from there I got introduced to porn sites and since then I started watching porn. Since the speed of internet was too slow on my phone. I did not see porn regularly I'd just sometimes download it from any porn site and when I was home alone I'd starting PMOing.

    Here is a funny thing, I was just watching PORN cuz it was exciting to me. I did not even know when I was 12 that you need to jerk off to porn. When the first time I saw hardcore porn I saw a man fapping before the scene would start. Even I tried jerking off and felt like damnnn .. WOW this is soo good!
    This is how I got introduced to exact PMO.

    When I was in 10th grade. I got high speed internet at home. Since 14-15 I have been JERKING off daily, hardly skipping a day, since I got wifi when I completed 10th grade I'd rather watch porn of my laptop if it was not possible I'd stream online on my android.

    After 10th grade my I started sucking with girls, I was good enough before that, in talking and flirting with them. But after PMO and high speed internet I realized some months back, so many people tell me that you are good looking tell me how many girlfriends have you had till now? I'd say NO, NEVER . But of all them would think I'm joking or maybe I don't want to share it with them. Nobody ever believed me.

    There were like 4-5 girls who were very interested in me. Well the fact is I just did not know how to talk to them inspite of them approaching me first via facebook,whatsapp or anyway. I just did not know what the fuck to say .. I'd just to COMPLETELY BLANK .. Even though I somehow managed to have some of them as my friends very good friends. Rest girl obviously went away cuz they must have thought I'm too weird.

    I remember when I was young I could flirt with girls, talk to them as considering them a normal human being . But after entering into college I just did not talk to any girl unless necessary for straight 3 years. I came to know from my friends many girls liked me but I never showed any sign of interest so they obviously went away.

    Now its my fourth year in college.
    Coming to NoFap .. I tried NoFap many times but the most I could take was 20 days .. after that I failed again, miserably ..went back to HARDCORE porn and realized if this keeps happening ... I will never change my life.

    I started again. . This time on 21st day of this challenge , in my whole fucking life .. I approached a girl directly . (Make sure I live in INDIA , here nobody does any direct approach, due to multiple reasons)

    She was really good but she rejected me! The fact is I tried, rather I would regret it all time. Make sure your motivation to meet girls just goes up,when you are not fapping and by putting courage you can meet women :D Well anyways this couldn't have happened if I would be PMOing . With NoFap I got that motivation to approach her and I did it. Well on the day she rejected me I felt like a BIG LOSER . I wanted to go back again to PMO but I did not .. ( A voice came in my head , WHEN YOU ARE AT THE POINT WHERE 99.9% PEOPLE WOULD QUIT, YOU HAVE TO KEEP GOING ) So I kept going.

    After not PMOing for some like 3 weeks . .. I realized one major change. Now I can atleast talk to girls. (Some days ago we had a get together of our old school friends. I did not take any initiative to talk to any girl but, a girl came up to me and we started talking, wasn't a big talk though I could look straight into her eyes and talk to her without feeling awkward or any such situation.


    Also I feel more confident in social situations.
    I'm actually very good at socializing, I can make any one my friend . But when it comes to a girl I suck ! xD

    Also in these 30days .. I've been pretty regular to college!
    Also started to hit the gym :D

    Also you don't just feel like GIVING A FUCK IF ANYONE IS TALKING SHIT ABOUT YOU!
    Don't Care , Live your LIFE ! :D
     
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  2. Cooldude4

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    Good one man!! keep up the good work!!!!
     
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  3. LiveAnAwesomeLife

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    dude, i like your post very much! It reminds me of the time I see man jerking off and until then I never actually jerked myself off....i only humped bed. but it gotten worse since I started jerking off in the bathroom!

    I wish there was some one who told me back in 2018 to not jerkoff and do other stuff like working out and learn something new...like playing a musical instrument or learning a new language,...

    anyways bro, you're 10 years younger to me, I am glad you found this forums and I wish you best of luck. Keep it going! Godspeed!
     

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