My Relationship With God Felt Like It Was Destroyed

Once I drew myself into the vicious cycle that was porn, I was hooked for many years and started looking outward at the effects that it was having. Not only were my bad habits tainting my cheerful attitude, disconnecting myself socially, and separating my family from me, but most importantly I started to feel apart spiritually.

God saved me about two years ago when I was lost in my addiction, and through the doubt, atheism, and lack of faith He has held on to me and never let go. His love is so fantastic and incomprehendable that it absolutely blows my mind. I don't even deserve what Jesus did for me 2000 years ago on a rugged cross, and yet He still gave His life for me!

Because of this love, I don't want to sin against my Heavenly Father, but everytime I do it feels like I am a failure and covered from head to toe in shame. After multiple repeats of this, I discovered that these are lies from Satan and that God claims all those who are His children as blameless before His sight! "There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus!" So if you are feeling dirty and disgusting from falling to porn like I did today, let this be a reminder that God still loves you and that you cannot afford to wallow in your own despair when you have God's will to live out on Earth!