my previous and current experience with nofap

Longtime ago i decided that i had enough of watching porn and masturbation , so i decided to quit . i started searching on google for ways to help me quit and ended up in nofap .back then this whole movement was new to me but got my attention.
i wasnt in a really bad shape and i blamed my anxiety mostly on me not being able to have a girlfriend .
to make a long story short , the first week was extremely tough on me , my urges were growing even more , and watching couples kissing or jsut holding hands (smth i usually dont care about) will make me more depressed ... it just made my life worst , couldn't focus at work so now im starting to question whether im doing the right thing or not . after reading some articles about how healthy masturbation is and that there is no evidence that porn is harmful i decided that maybe this nofap thing was good for only married people or guys that already are in a relationship ( people that actually do have a sex life ) , and that it will just make my anxiety getting worst . so i stopped and turned this page . after almost 4 years of watching porn excessively i started to see so many wrong things with me as a person . the addiction now is growing more than ever , i have to watch porn each time i come back from work and each time before i go to work and masturbate at least 4 times a day .its like i was using porn to deal with my anxiety which made it even worst . i got really skinny ,started balding really bad, having suicidal thoughts on a daily basis , lost complete interest on women if not hating them .in general i started feeling like a worthless piece of shit who s better off dead then alive . my skin looked very pale and my face looked like someone who was doing coke .10 days ago my sister came to visit me from France , she couldn't recognize me , and she made it clear that i need to change my life style .so i joined nofap website and created a counter .all it took is 8 days guys to become a totally new person even my sister is amazed of the progress (she doesn't know about my nofap journey , she thinks its just because im working out XD), my skin looks like a baby skin , im not exaggerating , my body transformation is just unbelievable (maybe due to muscle memory but i look like an entirely different person ) , my hair is getting better and stopped falling ,and eventho i still suffer from anxiety but its way less then before .

lessons learned = 1 ) porn wasn't helping with my anxiety it just made it 10 times worst .
2) first time i tried nofap it was for the wrong motivation ( women attraction ) , now its about me , each time i feel the urge i take my shirt off in front of the mirror see the benefits of nofap and be like there is no way im heading back to that shitty addiction .
3) dont believe videos that say porn is not harmful or masturbation is healthy , i know whats bad and good for me now, i dont need anyone to tell me what to do.
4) im learning to face my problems now ( im a 30 y old virgin )
after quitting porn and masturbating , i started to develop a " i dont give a damn attitude" XD i can see myself asking out a girl without an issue now.


Note : sorry for my english guys and thks to everyone that contribute in this community