My Personal Porn Addiction Story

My first exposure to online porn was at the age of 9 while staying after school for tutoring, needless to say at this age I found it by accident. It was a naked woman in a sexy pose, thankfully nothing more extreme. I find it ironic that just after 10 years after that day, I would loose my virginity. I didn't give porn much more attention until high school.

The problem began in high school. I wasn't popular (but did have friends), I was very depressed, I wanted a girlfriend but was always rejected by females, I hated myself, I felt ugly, and I was failing classes while my parents began to ignore me and began pushing me away. Thankfully I wasn't bullied. I turned to internet porn as a way of escaping depression. At first I used it in moderation, but it was a slippery slope. It began to devour most of my spare time and make me withdraw from the the friends I have. I kept shutting out the real world while becoming more and more absorbed by online porn. By senior year, I pretended to be sick on several days just to stay home and watch porn (and because I just didn't feel like going). I knew I had a problem but didn't want to admit it to myself. I even spent over $300 of money I had earned at work on porn sites. But I finally came to terms when I discovered that I was a victim of PIED. That's when I decided that enough was enough and to quit the habit. I finally got myself a girlfriend at the end of senior year who was a friend in my class, and we successfully had sex a few times and I was able to give up porn for a few weeks. But I couldn't control myself and went back to porn. Then PIED kicked in and I was unable to have sex with her anymore, making me decide to quit porn for good. I knew it was wrong to watch porn while having a girlfriend, but I couldn't kick the habit and it costed me the ability to be intimate with my girlfriend who I love very much. That was when I finally quit and I haven't looked back. I have been porn-free for about a month now, and have started to be able to function sexually without porn again! I feel much better already and hope to help people here along with receive help from others to make sure I don't slip back.