My keto journey

Thought I'd share this story before I go to bed. Been puzzling me for the last year or so...

So june 2018 I decided to embark with my girlfriend on another major lifestyle change. At the time I was overweight, had high blood pressure and I'm sure if I went to see a doctor it would have told me I was on the verge of diabetes. At the time my GF started to have inflammation problems; hip, back neck. We were getting uncomfortable in our bodies. Her research led her to the ketogenic diet.

So here we are, her after a year, me after 10 months. She lost 69 lbs and got rid of all her body issues. I'm down almost 60 lbs, go to the gym and lift weights. Never felt so good and I like how my body is changing. Love how hers is changing too lol.

Now what's puzzling me... How the hell was I able to make this drastic change - I did cut sugar from day one. I had no specific goal but to become more healthy. Now as my problem with porn and masturbation, I never been able to commit the same. And it's not that I knew I would lack sex; my GF enjoys sex really much. Man, she's the girl a lot of man would want - she's open, very confident, not ashamed of her body, etc. So as of today, even tough I got things more under control, I never got rid of PMOing for good, with regular slips where I consumed a bit more than I should.

So how the hell was I able to commit to a radical dietary lifestyle change while to this day, and after so much work, I am still struggling with porn. And you can't even imagine how committing to a 90 day challenge in normal mode was anxiety inducing! I feel like I am going to lose my penis or something. Although I know the good that is going to come out of this - I already experienced it a few times in the past with my good streaks... Very weird.

I know it's in my head and I still have to work on that, but it still surprises me how my brain works.