Hello, tbh I just found this website and I needed to share about what I go through. My addiction really started around 4 years ago (I think). And I was on a off the journey to freedom. Part of the problem was the fact that I hid it from everyone... literally no one knew. Until I felt like it wasn’t getting any better handling it alone I read every single article about this addiction and all of them say “talk about it” so I did. Wasn’t easy but I did and it helped a lot. Fast forward to now. I’m feeling weak because I relapsed and I’m not proud of it. True I’ve relapsed many times before but this time was different. It was after my family knew about my problem. I know why I do it but the problem is I don’t know what to do when it’s 1 am and I’m having urges. Cause obviously I can’t get up and start exercising. So if anyone can give me suggestions that’ll be great. I relapsed probably four times in the past 3 months of trying to get clean. I just wanted to share my thoughts with others who know what I’m going through because it’s not the best thing to talk about with your family. So far I’m been clean for five hours lol. But I hope to keep going strong. This is just another part of my journey.