Just to echo what Bee_11 said, there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING normal about porn. It involves tons of makeup, dress, cameras, lighting......and of course ACTING. At the end of the day these are PRODUCTIONS meant to create strong mental images. These are situations that cannot be reproduced in real life. If you listen to porn stars in any interviews they all say real sex is TOTALLY different from being on camera. The idea of having sex in a room full of strangers with cameras and doing multiple takes with editing is NOT normal. Also it is impossible, to experience sex from the view of camera angles we see. There is no music in the background either. It is amazing though, how we have created this in our minds and associate it with being normal. Sex is all about the physicality of being in the actual prescence of someone else. In the moment, you are both present and actually connecting with each other. If both people are not present then you really are just behaving like animals. I am going on this rant not to you necessarily, but also to solidify this in my own mind. When my urges get high it is difficult for me to think like this all the time. However, it is still the reality of the situation. Just know that refusing PMO, is not just will-power but going up against a billion dollar porn industry. Be encouraged and hang in there.