It’s been a while since I posted. A few nights ago I succumbed again to my sexual addiction compulsion by getting drunk and going to an Asian massage parlor. I felt like I wanted to die after I did my thing and this has been going on for over 15 years now. I will go for about 2-3 months and then all the anxiety builds up and the thoughts re-enter my head and then I go on a mission. I will sometimes first go to bars to see if I can meet a woman who I can have sex with but since I have “no game” I will end up at a massage parlor. I am ashamed and feel weak and I hate myself for continuing on with this especially since I have so much to lose. Anybody else out there who has struggled with this? Thanks for reading.