My Addiction

Greetings, I've finally decided to start NoFap because my poor dopamine receptors are in serious need of a reboot that my excessive masturbation is really negatively impacting my life. I'm currently 19 but for a while now I haven't had a significant sex drive and regardlessly I've still been masturbating multiple times daily due to boredom or stress. I don't have any desire to approach females and during my last sexual encounter, I couldn't even get an erection. I've been really annoyed at myself for this addiction as it's clearly stopping me from reaching my full potential for years now and haven't done anything about it. I've had a few occasions where I've tried to go without it for a while but I've always managed to make up excuses in my mind convincing me I deserve just one. I promise my self it will just be one but then it's two, three, etc. or I'll tell myself I'll restart tomorrow and then the day after and so on. The annoying part is that I rarely watch porn. Most the time I masturbate over people I've met or people on social media instead of actually going out into the real world and trying to make any of it come true due to my confidence being low and I have social anxiety. I pretty much live inside my own head where I fantasize over the person I want to be and won't do anything in the real world to try to be that person. Therefore I'm hoping that in going abstinence for a few months can help me escape this fantasy world I'm pretending to live in and take control over myself.