Hi I’m Nathan I’m a 33 year old male from the uk. I have a wife and 2 wonderful children. I recently got into some serious trouble from my online activity. After doing so I have been trying to find out why I have been watching excess porn and material that I do not find exceptable. I have been reading YBOP for the last few days and a lot of the problems and scenarios stated I can relate to. I started watching porn I think around the age of 11. My father always had a collection of videos and it wasn’t too hard for me to find them. When we finally got internet at our house I had a desktop pc in my room which I used mainly to watch porn. I lost my virginity at 15 and had no problems getting an erection, but the following year after having a few sexual encounters I found myself limp in the heat of the moment. I found this happened with almost every sexual partner I’ve had. I would often embarrassingly lie that it was because I was taking steroids. This left me feeling a bit of a freak and questioning my sexuality. I’ve always thought that watching porn was a normal part of a mans life and that if I didn’t watch it I wasn’t normal. By the sounds of my recent research it has been my very problem. I have been with my wife for the past 13 years, during this time I have always watched porn. It got so bad at one point, that any time I had to myself I would find myself masturbating to porn, and sometimes things that I find absolutely appalling. I have brought a lot of shame and problems to my family from my addiction to porn and I’m currently trying to rebuild our lives. A massive concern to me is the lack of education around the effects of porn use. I think more needs to be done. I am currently on a no masturbation, no porn fast. I’m currently on day 10 and am getting erections constantly. I am determined though that I will over come all my problems. I owe it to my loved ones!!!!