Masturbation is bad for my relationship

I have been in a happy long-distance relationship for 4 months. This, of course, means that we don't get to see each other very often. Before the relationship had started, I frequently masturbated, about 5 times a week. However, now that I'm in this relationship, she doesn't want me to do it any longer and I don't want to either. I've been trying to stop, but there are days when the urge to masturbate is too strong and I can't help it. Today, it happened again. I confessed it to her and she doesn't wanna talk to me right now.

It's not the first time that this happened. The whole thing is harming our relationship. I'm so happy with my girlfriend and she means more to me than anyone else. And I don't want to lose her for anything in the world.

The only solution to this issue is to stop masturbating and find a way to resist the urge to do it. This is why I decided to join this community. Maybe, someone can understand me and help me achieve this goal.

Btw, sorry for any English mistakes, I'm not a native speaker ^^

 

We just met a week ago and had the best sex I could ever imagine. The issue is the time in between. We tried cam sex, but it turned out it was very hard for her to get an orgasm. So it was only me who came. This was the first issue: That I would always come while she wouldn't. After a long debate, I stopped fapping when we had cam sex to avoid that 'unfairness'. But afterwards, I would still be horny and finish the job when I was alone.

She doesn't need to have an orgasm to be happy but I'm just unsatisfied when I have to stop on the way.

 

Actually, that's just what I did. But after some time, she felt neglected because during those 3 months back then, in total she had come 3 times and I had come like 20 times.

 

My main problem is that when I'm horny, it's hard for me to control myself. So it happened quite a few times that I wanted her to make me come even if she wasn't really in the mood for it. But she still did it to make me happy. But she never received anything back.

That's the main reason she was upset. Because she would always do it for me but I just cared about myself.

 

We live about 700 km apart. We see each other about once a month.

But in 3 days, she's going on vacation for 6 weeks and after that, it takes another 2 weeks before we can see each other again. So next time we will meet is somewhere around September 20.

 

I don't have a problem with her not wanting me to do it while we're apart. I want it to be like that myself. It's the control over myself I'm struggling with. I don't want to do it but at a certain point, the urge is too strong and overwhelms me.

 

I could do that, but I feel it's not right. It hurts her, it hurts me, and it harms our relationship. That's why I just want to get control over myself and stop it.

 

It's good that you tell what your opinion is. I didn't expect to get a reply that quickly and I'm so thankful that you're listening and trying to help. Especially since the situation is not very easy for me, I'm really glad to have people supporting me.