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Hello everyone .
I Listened to a podcast this week that has totally changed my life , I never thought I had problem , i always thought masturbation was healthy but listening to that made me think about my consumption of pornography and how I am Pretty unhealthy in terms of my p.m.o . I’m starting my reboot journey . Which I have a feeling maybe tough , as I started my habit very early, before puberty before I could barely orgasm or even ejaculate but got a nice feeling ! And as I’m sure we all know it escalated and when porn be came available it’s not really stopped since . I’m now 29 and in a few hours I will have gone 2 days without a p.m.o which 1 day has been rare let alone 2 in a very long time , so decided to Get a handle on this and hope you all can help me on my journey . As I hope I can help you

Ps .Sorry for the major paragraph just wanted to get it all out

 

Yes it already feels great to talk to the community and all the advice is giving me the strength I need to reboot . Well I always thought that masterbating was healthy and nothing to be ashamed and still do , but it’s more that I have to regular like at least 2-3 times a day . And pretty much always to tube site pornography and the fact the need is so great i have done it places I shouldn’t like in my workplace and don’t mean in the toilet . And thank you I will defiantly look those up

 

For me it wasn’t the risk of the taboo place to it just had the urge and gave in straight away , and I would like to give up m totally and concrete any sexual urges or feelings to my partner but im being realistic just the pmo is pretty harmful and that’s what i need to change right now . Ye thanks ye I’m feeling great and proud already ye you can take advice or encouragement, help , inspiration etc but you need to want to do it and your the only one who can make it better

 

man , feels crazy ... but crazy good that im 5 days into my reboot , is it to early to start feeling the benefits , im feeling super postive about everything , had a few urges and cravings yesterday but with the advice of the community they past me by and i took control , never thought a week a go this would be possible so thank you , all who have given me kind and inspirational words . i know its real early days but for me feels like ive made more progress than i ever thought possible .. so far anyway, i plan to keep up the fight for no pmo . well today might be the real test how far ive come , its going to be a long , boring , quiet day at work . and most of the time going to be by my self and if i wanted i could pmo no problem (which i wont of course ) so might need some help later on

 

thanks mate , appreciate that . hope you have a good weekend

 

Not much happened yesterday . Was out and about and family stuff so didn’t get chance to think about stuff

But didn’t sleep to well mind was going over time . A lot of strange dreams and of course sex ones which is the first time since my reboot . Really craving pmo this morning I thought I had it under control had a few urges before but been able to pass them by but today I’m struggling a lil got to be honest

 

thanks for support , means alot . its the hardest it been , i had to come on here a get this out , my mind is racing all i can think would be so much easier just to pmo , get rid of this feeling , and automaticlly nearly typed in one of the sites would normally go to
gonna go for a walk clear my head

 

thanks guys feeling better , took control , i know i did this , was my strength and no one can do this for me but your nice words , good advice dont hurt , so thank you @Delirious12018 @JefeRojo means alot

just realised im a 7 days into my reboot , that boosted me

 

been going good since my last update ......think i just came close to relapsing , with out even realising and for no real reason either , just before i knew i had loaded up one of the 'sites' i used to go on was playing the video and i really had to force my self not to go further , literally put my hands up and say NO , it was like i went blank... then almost woke up have you ever experienced anything like this ?

 

Yes definitely gaining more strength and control . Feeling irritable and annoyed today ,not sure if it’s part of the withdrawal .10days ago I would of pmo’d make me feel better I just thought no I’m not . How you doing today

 

its been building for a few days now but ... dont know if i can fight this much longer , today especially is getting me down , an all i need right now is a pmo , then maybe will feel better....