Lost time

Hey I don’t know how to start this so whatever

I’m 22, Male & a student.
I first discovered/saw porn when I was 8. I didn’t think much of it then, tbh i didn’t really see it again until I was 12/13yrs this is when we started getting cellphones. I only really started. To struggle with watching porn at 15/16yrs I just couldn’t stop watching it, and it felt okay because everyone else was doing it.

In my final year of highschool I realized I had a problem when I couldn’t masturbate without a visual stimulus. It got worse when I got into Uni because being heart broken all the time and putting your all out there leaves you with a sense of longing and lack of acceptance. And in my darkest days porn was there, it wasn’t only my escape but my enabler to gratify instantly what I wanted, it was my comfort place.

But I didn’t listen to my elders when they said “porn is destructive” I can honestly say I’ve wasted so much of my life, talent in sports, Time in academics all because of porn. It gives me a sense of security. I’ve always wanted to have sex when I’m married that’s always been me! YES IM THAT GUY! I realized I had to quote this lifestyle because I found myself itching closer & closer to breaking that rule and accepting that maybe I can be a “man whore” it’s okay to make up for lost fun times you didn’t have in school. Deep down in my heart it would break me if that ever happened and I know I’d be addicted to sex. I cannot accept such a path. This is why I need to be free from porn and masturbation and be filled with life again. To truly live out my ambitions and help others who are like me