Losing Weight Encouragement (My Story)

There's probably thousands of threads around here about this, but thought I'd start a new topic telling my story.

After last years Christmas and New Years eve, I was looking a bit overweight I didn't realize how bad I was until I took pics with some of my friends and thought to myself: "Damn I don't look good at all! Need to change this"

During January, I always finding excuses and having bad eating habits. Started to eating healthy during February, trying to educate myself watching youtube videos. First weeks sucked because I was so out of shape but eventually after 3 months I lost about 28 pounds(13kilos), there's no better feeling when people started noticing your changes but still not in the best shape of my life. Far from it.

I suffer from a disease called Hemophilia. For those who don't know what it means.

"In short its a bleeding disorder which affects roughly 1 in 5,000-10,000 males, it is a inherited condition which is recessive on the X chromosome. You experience longer bleeding times than the average person, bruise more easily, and are vulnerable to internal bleeds in joints (common places are ankle, elbow etc.)

Small cuts aren't a problem, you can just apply pressure to those as normal and they will stop. It's the bigger cuts and internal bleeds which are the issue. It's all due to a lack of clotting factor in the blood (Factor VIII, or IX). You can inject yourself with artificial factor to help rise your levels for a day or two. "

I have to inject myself monday, wednesday and friday to make sure I don't suffer from an injury. So that being said, you can tell I have to be extra careful with what I do. I'm able to do a "normal" life though.

Also, I did this while still doing masturbation - there were days I didn't workout during that time but the good eating habits make up for it. Now that I know why even some of the biggest athletes try to restrain themselves from fapping. I look up to them and inspire myself to change myself for the better.

Lately I'm not gonna lie, it's summer time where I'm from(Portugal by the way), sometimes there are parties and I like to have fun with my friends and stuff. And it gets tough to keep a healthy life while still trying to focus to NoFap, keep myself injury-free and working out. Sometimes even my friends like to joke why I'm drinking water during a night out(not all of them are like that though) and it sucks. Because the last thing I need is, to be discouraged.

I used to be skinny when I was 14 and 15, had a good childhood always playing football(or some like to say soccer) with my friends in the streets. But there's a time I got depressed during 2008 when my parents got divorced and my grandmother died in the same period of time. Plus during that time it was my parents that used help with the hemophilia stuff, helping inject make sure I didn't screw up.

I even got sent to the hospital with the lack of factor in my blood after a while, my mother got a huge depression after the lost of my grandmother and she couldn't even help me during that time. Got injured in the legs, couldn't even walk, so I stayed in a hospital for a months, if I remember correctly. During that time doctors taught me how to take care of myself, injecting myself properly. I started to get on my feet again after a while. But after that I started to isolate myself from everyone. Those days were traumatizing for me. I was a happy kid but all of sudden I became miserable.

After 2008, got out of shape, saw alot of porn, got addicted and never been the same kid ever again. Now I'm 24y, I'm trying to make a point to myself, that it's never too late to change. I'm trying to have the same focus again that I had during the beggining of the year. These summer days have been leading me again to bad habits with alcohol, smoking and also trash food once in a while.

I wonder if someone trying to make a change on themselves again. Hopefully my story isn't that depressing for y'all. I know there are people out there who go through even worse shit.

Sorry if there are some mistakes there, english is not my native language but I try my best.
Keep your head strong. Strive for Greatness.

 

Thanks! I appreciate it.

 

I've made a topic today talking about how I relapsed. :/ During this time I was doing much better, will be back again at it though.

Thank you for the kind of words, this is the most honest I ever been on the internet, it means alot.