Today two friends of mine came to spend this lovely summer day in the city I live in. This is very nice vibrant city especially in summer. I haven't seen those friends in 6 months. I'm so tired on the other one of them. Her mind is only on things like Instagram and how other people look. She browsed her Instagram while we were sitting in a park and had a discussion, she didn't join the discussion because her ig was more interesting to her. She always wants her pictures taken so she can make ig posts. She is commenting strangers to us, if someone is wearing "wrong clothes on her bodytype" or when she is jealous about some girls body. She always compliments the other friend. She have told me many times how I could look better. I always feel like there's something wrong with me, when I'm in her company. She is like little follower to the other friend, she admires her and always chooses the same drink as her, or wants to walk with her, didn't come to meet me before the other friend was available to come here too.. the list goes on. We have known each other since kids and I always felt I was a third wheel. She didn't even want me to take her pics, she only accepted if "the better friend" took them. Past couple of years, Everytime I have spent time with the annoying friend, I have felt so shit about myself. I have lost my confidence. When my confidence has been low anyway, it is difficult to not let her behavior to affect on me so negatively. A year ago, after being a week on a holiday trip with them, I was so broken. I barely replied to our WhatsApp chat at all in very long time, months even. Everytime I think if she has grown up since our last meeting. Still Everytime I leave feeling shit. Sometimes I think she is just jealous for me too. For boosting my own confidence. I tried to explain to her that her social media addiction is affecting really badly on her. And that the things she sees aren't real. And the real life is outside of social media. And she makes herself miserable by comparing herself to those who does their job by posting pretty pictures on ig. Why would I try anymore because it seems like she doesn't get it. "The better friend" is really nice. She is a true friend for me. But I can't be just with her everytime. I'm so hard trying to accept myself and my body as it is. I try to believe I'm worthy and beautiful. And I am more than my looks. After this day there's two sides fighting about it, the other one tries to believe those good things, and the other is saying that there are so many flaws, i should be more that, less that, dress better etc etc. BTW. Years ago, when I told those friends that my fiance didn't want to have sex with me at all, and I was so sad about it. "The social media girl" suggested that I should watch porn with him so maybe he would get excited and then f**k me. I knew that his P usage was the problem in the first place, but I didn't say it to them/her. Made me feel so much worse, like I was a huge failure in my relationship. I should have been open for P and suggest to watch it together to "boost" our sex life. But I was so bad that he wanted to do it alone. Now I feel bad about complaining so much about my friend. I'm sorry. I'm not good friend either for telling these things about her.