Loneliness and Confusion

Welcome to Your New Beginning.

One thing at a time. Job number one is to get porn out of your life, and then you will have the ability to work on other aspects.
This is YOUR recovery and you must own it. You may be familiar with other addiction recovery programs. The first 90 days of these programs require meeting everyday for the first 90 days of recovery. I suggest visiting and contributing to NoFap each of your first 90 days. Glean wisdom from the strong, encourage the new, and be wary of those who are negative and make excuses. Add the words of your struggle to those of others and help create this wonderful narrative of transformation. I have made my NoFap time a replacement for all web surfing and social media. Be wary of depending on technology like counters and web filters. Understand that the battle is between your ears more so than between your legs. Each time you are tempted to go to that foul place, you must remember the man you are working to become, and then choose to be in control. Do not allow porn to steal another second of your life.

Invictus
William Ernest Henley, 1849 - 1903
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul

Be Strong my Friend.

 

Sorry to hear your story, however, this is a lesson. I wouldn't say that it's your fault, but just remember it: If you had a normal life without any bad addition, you probably end up in a different life. Life is our response, none God's or parents. No matter what you believe, and which religion you choose (I am not talking about religion LOL). Trust me, life is yours. You shouldn't screw it up again. Take a lesson and make life better. I trust that the time you are in this forum, something in your life would be greater and greater in future. To improve our destiny, I am in. And I would be here, if you need me. Just message me. I believe that all these are just stages we stepped on, it's useful, but we would step higher with more stages.