There’s this girl who I have a massive crush on, she’s literally the most perfect girl in the world to me. I went to school with her, but I have really bad anxiety and no self confidence, so I never spoke to her. It’s been over 2 years since I’ve left school now and there hasn’t been a day I haven’t thought about her, I think about her all day and night.... I even sort of stalk her on insta, cos I look at all the pics that she’s liking. And I’ve screen shotted pics of her and have them on my phone. Anyway here comes the weird part.... I live like a fantasy life in my head where I’m in a perfect relationship with her, bare in mind I’ve never spoken to this girl, so I’ve made up how she talks and her personality and her family and the way her house looks in my imagination. But I spend a lot of time during the day, daydreaming about this life I have with her.... and at night I cuddle my pillow pretending it’s her. Am I normal. I’ve been living this fantasy life for years now and whenever I’m not doing anything that involves concentration, I’m dreaming about that life with her.