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Life Time sissy

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by Ballistix117, Apr 27, 2018.

  1. Ballistix117

    Ballistix117 Fapstronaut

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    I hope they weren't but I wouldn't be surprised. For some reason I'm just so attracted to them. I'm staying in all day today. Less chance of triggers
     
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  3. Ballistix117

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    Hey thank you for posting and congratulations. It really helps me knowing other people have gotten past their issues.
     
  4. I did this for years- and still do to an extent- I even didn't pursue relationships if women didn't dress that way -

    Since I have started NF and did several successful no PMO streaks - I noticed that I started to become attracted, interested and aroused by 'normal' things about a woman and their whole selves rather than just that piece of clothing,
     
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    So, this morning I woke up after an erotic dream. I say erotic because I didn't cum so I know it wasn't a wet dream. Although when I awoke my hand was on my penis. In the dream I was with maybe 10 girls. All of which I think we're trying to get me too dress like a girl. I don't remember what the outfit looked like but I do remember it did involve leggings. After I was all dressed I vaguely remember them saying one of us a bunch of times. Then I awoke and found myamys in the position that I described. My nexy question is if I do have a wet dream. Is that considered a relapse?
     
  6. Ballistix117

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    Yeah I feel like if I were sonehow in a relationship right now. The girl would have to dress in clothes that turn me on
     
  7. Me too.
    I can't get in a relationship because I have to figure out how to like myself 100% (even knowing that I have may imperfections).
    I feel that if I had a gf, I would break up with her because of my insecurities or she would break up with me because she sees that I am not comfortable.
     
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    So, I decided to move up my next therapy appointment to tonight. I've been having a really hard time today again. Most of the same problems again
     
  9. Yesterday I was a small step from relapsing. Days here are becoming hotter. Girls use leggings more often. I saw a youtube video and a girl was wearing a bikini. I got a fucking urge...Just wanted to be in the position of that girl. Then I laughed...my brain has to be educated and it is being educated without the NoFap thing.
     
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    I'm pretty sure in going to relapse if I don't go tonight. As I was leaving work i saw the most adorable outfit. I had another dream like the one I described the other day also.
     
  11. Ballistix117

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    I always think that too. I wish I was her or I wish I was wearing that is my thought
     
  12. I will not relapse and I am going to tell you why.

    On the sixth day I woke up with a deeper voice. I thought it would be because of a sore throat or somehting,
    But my voice is still deeper.

    My acne increased as shit. I have mourning woods more frequently. This is like puberty all over again.
    I think it is correlated with testosterone. Testosterone changes voice, triggers acne and gives you more mourning erections.

    It is likely that my testosterone increased. When I am walking to work or after work, I feel good. Even if I am depressed, I walk with good posture and heads up.

    Girls are looking at me. But I don't know if I am the one who is actually looking at them and catch them looking at me.
    How can I know if girls always looked at me if I never looked at them? Now, I have the super power to sense that girls are looking at me xD.
    Nevertheless, I always think that they look at me because I am a ugly freak.

    Of course, those effects can be resulted from other external factors and placebo can help.

    Why would I relapse now? I really want to see if this thing works.
     
  13. very often if you tell yourself it's just wiring and try to 'step out' of your head, you can take away the urge..


    I would not wait to be 'perfect' - part of building confidence is being with women and 'failing' and learning from that - just detach yourself from outcomes...

    wet dreams are not considered relapses, but don't try to have them by doing things like fantasizing before you go to sleep.
    it is pretty amazing that the mind can cause enough stimulation with no outside stimulus to cause ejaculation
     
  14. I realized this for me - it was not the femininity of them they just felt great - they were softer than mens stuff- but what caused 'confusion' is that its also a highly sexual object it made a woman's body look even better than naked... and i think some of that thought was melded with the self stimulation
     
  15. It makes sense.
     

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