life is so easy and boring

Don't worry, the emptiness phase of your reboot is real proof that you had an addiction and that you are coming out of it. It's perfectly normal to feel empty and sad because you've given up a big part of your life. Remember that you shouldn't focus on what you don't have, and try to fill up your life with meaningful activities. Create goals and visions for yourself and start doing what you need to do to achieve them.

One of my favourite quotes applies here: "Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving."

DS.

 

Damn I feels same way except i relapse every day... alot

 

Suicide is never an option your not preventing things from getting worse your making sure things never get better. In life theres gonna be tons of ups and downs. If your looking for a girlfriend instead of watching TV after work why not pick up a productive hobby that helps you meet new interesting people...

Just keep making good choices for yourself and things will get 100 times better before you realise it yourself... Try get out of the house as much as possible its a great distraction and a good way to meet people. Also keep up the exercise

 

A girl being your reason to live? Sure whatever makes you feel better. But you'll probably find a girl who is addicted to attention, that's never good.

 

feeling empty is normal at least in the first 2 weeks because dopamine receptors are damaged but it's long to explain so i won't bore you.when you didn't watch porn and didn't masturbated for 2 or 3 weeks then see if you have these feelings.

 

You're setting yourself up for failure imo. Much of "real love" is a Hollywood myth.
Especially if you are looking for it from unfeminine "feminized" women, which you find in the west, it is doomed to fail. She would despise you for making her your reason to live.

A healthier place to start would be real friendship (with a guy)

 

Right! Problem is not that life is meaningless, it's that your neurology is trying to figure out what to do with itself. In my own life, when things feels empty or meaningless, it could be because I'm not pursuing the right activities and am getting over an addiction, but on a physiological level your body is telling you that life is meaningless right now because you don't have the same dopamine rushes that you once had. It's hard when you're in the jar to see what's outside the jar. It's hard to imagine that your body is going to do different things and heal and actually feel different. But (and especially if you initiate good activities despite your own listlessness) the point I'm trying to make is that just because your body and brain seem to have decided that life is meaningless right now, that doesn't make it true. Unfortunately, it does take some time for the body to get better.

Volunteering is a really good idea. So is any kind of sport. Both are great sources of wholesome rushes.

 

"I don't have time to be unhappy because there is too much I want to do."
This is the quote I live by.

You are a matrix of infinite perspective mechanisms, yet you hold onto such a myopic perspective. You've been conditioned to find contentment (if it's even possible?) in a drop of water from that endless ocean of infinite possibilities. It's by design.

You have a lot of work to do.

 

@Wouter I feel the exact same way as you describe. Not that I am considering ending my life yust yet, but I feel like nothing really matters at the moment. I am going to pull myself together and call a therapist tommorrow. Thanks for many interesting comments. It helps me at least.