Liberation program into a beautiful free life. 365 days

Discussion in 'Abstinence, Retention, and Sexual Transmutation' started by Erichpure, May 9, 2019.

  1. Erichpure

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    Complete reset rework and 180 degree change of life from a low life PMO addiction to a beautiful quality life that is possible for everyone.

    I know I am able to do this. I did it in the past and worked hard through completely clearing myself from Pmo addiction clearing my mind from lude thoughts in long monk mode phases on spiritual places. I also was able to change my personality with hard work.
    I was also able to reach high levels spiritually.

    What I wasn’t able is controlling my anger and eliminating my deep monk vows trying to live a monk like life in midst of being married.
    These two are the reason for my downfall and why I fell so deep and allowed my mind to become so dirty and habits to take a place in me that shouldn’t be here.
    So this downfall has a good in it. The realization of this. Without this I am not free. That’s the cause of my problem.

    I am now putting all together that I have and will go day by day step by step through the days and know eventually I will be out of all perversion addiction and wrong developments in my brain.

    I know negativity and these sick ways prevent me from living a life I know I am missing out on and I know how I could be.

    I will not settle for anything less but complete liberation purification of all lude sick thoughts that I allowed to become friend. They aren’t any longer.

    It will first take two weeks to get passt the physical immediate urges because of overuse of my cock.
    Then temptations will sneak into my mind in mean ways trying to convince me to give in to some erotic ideas and end up in Pmo. It will also come in the thousands of ways girls can be tempting in movies public anywhere at any time. Through their thousands of ways by being what they are. Beautiful sexy attractive.

    It will come through their body their voices their poses their dresses their looks in endless ways.
    Only high alertness and mindfulness can combat this.

    suppression judgement or morals are all the wrong tools.

    Those are a ongoing battle to combat for months. The good thing is that I am aware of what is coming.

    Then what is different then before is that I am working on making love regular with my wife. Vs like before trying to live a monklike life combatting desire while being married because I have this very deep karma of a spiritual monk vow in me.
    This is, while having helped in the past life, now a hindrance as I completely need to get rid of this life and beauty denying pattern that only serves when you want to be a monk and live the life of a monk.

    Then it’s super important to do physical excercise again as I used to. So I pick up my program again.

    My spiritual practice as a Buddhist is most important as mindfulness is one key tool to escape this realm of hell I am tied in because I allowed wrong thinking and habits to take place.

    These two are the main problem and reason for drowning and living a low life.

    These two I know will be gone after one year and allow me to settle deeper into a true meaningful life of beauty quality and contentment.
     
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    I had long strakes of months a few years back. Then a pattern of 2 month strakes. My strakes were not just PMO but real monk mode. No desire at all no thinking about it even. Nevertheless there were underlying causes that were unresolved that kept pulling me back in and eventually led to me developing serious edging and loosing all discipline I developed. I went through these causes and believe now I can gradually develop myself out of this and manage a 365 day purification
     
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  3. Day_by_day

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    3/365: feeling great. Had a good day with my wife and the kids today. When they are in bed I go for a run. perfect!
     
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    A great story and reason for hope. Day 0 here. I have a long road ahead
     
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    I had a few very rough days. That’s why I didn’t write. Work and with my wife. In a very challenging situation.

    Thanks for everyone joining.

    I am at day 7. I gathered a lot of methods. I want to use this thread to remind myself and work with others steady on this goal.

    It’s good writing with you guys
     
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    I also developed a pattern to become active again at evening. I used to feel so low in energy and just dumped myself to sleep. I discovered if I walk in evening I can get in shape once more. I do the kitchen when everyone sleeps and have another half hour before going to bed. Feels good looks good family is happy. It’s a combination of a lot of twists like this that’s needed.
     
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    Hi Phoenix. Fighting the battle is worth it.
     
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    I also picked up workout again. I used to go three times a week. Got in good physical shape felt way better. Work took over too much and I dropped this. I started now again. My body aches. That’s a own rhythm I remember from last time. Tiredness and body ache rests and weightlifting until body is gradually used again and in much better shape. I used to build up running and rope jumping. But I need one thing at a time. Once I am used to the three times a week again.
     
  9. Awedouble

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    Hello, I'll be interested in following your progress and journey, thanks for sharing.

    What is Ling?

    Just to expand on this a bit as a reminder, you may recall there are 6 realms in the scheme. Other than the lower tier three of hell, hungry ghost and animal realms which are obviously relevant to addiction, the desire god and jealous god realms may also be relevant - when people gain confidence from a long streak I wonder if we might characterize that as being relevant to the deva and asura realms. The teachings say only the human realm is good for liberation.
     
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    Seems a bit rambly to me dude.. Maybe if you really believe in buddhism you will follow the basic precepts or better yet lose this idea of actually existing or having a 'self' in the first place. Not trying to upset anybody just saying meditate and free yourself. The answers are all within no amount of lovemaking to any woman is going to solve your problems and may actually be making things more difficult for you. The precepts of a monk as I'm sure you're aware include not penetrating another person's body due to the passion and attachment which come along with that action. You will fall for the idea of existing and having a self therefore perpetuating your suffering that in reality doesn't even exist as a seperate thing from the universe at all. Around and around we go through samsara lost and yearning..
     
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    Supposed to mean long. Sorry. Not ling. I call hell hell outside of the exact definition or striving to characterize. You can travel between hells and heavens every day. It’s not a place outside of here now. It depends where you put your mind. If you put it I to lowlife hellish life follows.
     
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    Sorry. This sounds so extremely theoretical and lost in theories without any relation to real life. That’s not what the teaching is. The teaching is very beautiful and helpful and very related to true life. I do meditate quite a bit. But how are you? It’s always good to trying to relate in ones own progress ones own life. Then a comment can even become a meaningful contribution to what someone else experiences or strives for.
     
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    I wanted to write each day but am so consumed by a lot of work and challenges. That’s always a good thing in regards to staying clear.
    I am now hitting my 13 day challenge which I know means that my body cycle will cause to have a lot of desire the next days. I already woke up from quite some erotic dreams. I know this will fade away if I keep strong the next days and manage to free my mind from these. I have the good situation that I successfully lived monks mode for years. I know how things can fall off like a persistent weed indide my mind and can get unrooted.
     
  14. Awedouble

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    Yes, what I was getting at is even the two heaven realms contribute to addiction in their own way, desire and jealousy. I think some addictive behavior like codependency touches more on these levels, though as you pointed out it goes back and forth.
     
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    It's all good man, I'm doin alright.
     

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