Complete reset rework and 180 degree change of life from a low life PMO addiction to a beautiful quality life that is possible for everyone. I know I am able to do this. I did it in the past and worked hard through completely clearing myself from Pmo addiction clearing my mind from lude thoughts in long monk mode phases on spiritual places. I also was able to change my personality with hard work. I was also able to reach high levels spiritually. What I wasn’t able is controlling my anger and eliminating my deep monk vows trying to live a monk like life in midst of being married. These two are the reason for my downfall and why I fell so deep and allowed my mind to become so dirty and habits to take a place in me that shouldn’t be here. So this downfall has a good in it. The realization of this. Without this I am not free. That’s the cause of my problem. I am now putting all together that I have and will go day by day step by step through the days and know eventually I will be out of all perversion addiction and wrong developments in my brain. I know negativity and these sick ways prevent me from living a life I know I am missing out on and I know how I could be. I will not settle for anything less but complete liberation purification of all lude sick thoughts that I allowed to become friend. They aren’t any longer. It will first take two weeks to get passt the physical immediate urges because of overuse of my cock. Then temptations will sneak into my mind in mean ways trying to convince me to give in to some erotic ideas and end up in Pmo. It will also come in the thousands of ways girls can be tempting in movies public anywhere at any time. Through their thousands of ways by being what they are. Beautiful sexy attractive. It will come through their body their voices their poses their dresses their looks in endless ways. Only high alertness and mindfulness can combat this. suppression judgement or morals are all the wrong tools. Those are a ongoing battle to combat for months. The good thing is that I am aware of what is coming. Then what is different then before is that I am working on making love regular with my wife. Vs like before trying to live a monklike life combatting desire while being married because I have this very deep karma of a spiritual monk vow in me. This is, while having helped in the past life, now a hindrance as I completely need to get rid of this life and beauty denying pattern that only serves when you want to be a monk and live the life of a monk. Then it’s super important to do physical excercise again as I used to. So I pick up my program again. My spiritual practice as a Buddhist is most important as mindfulness is one key tool to escape this realm of hell I am tied in because I allowed wrong thinking and habits to take place. These two are the main problem and reason for drowning and living a low life. These two I know will be gone after one year and allow me to settle deeper into a true meaningful life of beauty quality and contentment.