Lets give it a good ol' try! Day 1E: Beware of your surroundings!

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    Day 4
    I tried this for a few months back, I think I lasted 10 days. I am sort of doing a few things right now that I want to get better at. While NoFap is a big part, it is grouped with other things, but first: I am 25 years old and I lack focus at times, procrastinate, use my phone too much, get anxious, feel too negative at times. Now I have been working the past year on making myself a more positive person with appreciation, being thankful, changing my thoughts, journaling, getting better with my hobbies such as: drumming, painting, guitar, exercise, ect. I do have a bit of friends, and a wonderful supportive family but now I am hitting that age where people are busier, getting married, same with me. I am busy as heck, and I do have goals and dreams. My relationships with people are generally great, positive. I haven't had much luck with relationships. I dated a few times, my longest relationship was a month, I am still a virgin (Sort of by choice, I didn't want to take advantage and chose to do the right things in past situations at parties). I am in the process of getting better at it; in terms of loving myself, having fun in the moment. I am learning that everything ties together and that I need to do things that make me happy, energetic, rituals that will make me a better person with a better spirit and awareness. ​

    As of today I journal everyday, keep track of goals, meditate, visualize, exercise, work with purpose. I am stopping my constant need to be on my phone. (That really skyrockets my focus and energy level!) Stopping my need to masturbate. (I never really looked at porn, but it doesn't feel that good and saps my energy.) Eating right! (Eating some fruit, veggies, nuts, good food. With occasionally junk mixed in sparingly.) Sleeping 8 hours a night. (I am good at this so far.) I am also making it a priority to do the right things everyday, get rid of selfishness, show unconditional value to others, love, listening better. Through doing all of this I am realizing how many people I see everyday who don't do these things, I see hate, negativity, people doing nice things just to get things back, ect. And when I do see these things I am so grateful I'm not like that.

    Now since this is a NoFap site, the NoFap part of my journal is important as well. I never really had a porn addiction, but more of a jerking off addiction. I was never the type of guy who could do it more then once a day, every other day was what felt good. But it was one of those things where it felt good for those few seconds, then feeling tired and peaceful. But then the next day feeling groggy, less focused, more lazy ect. More willing to be negative and sad then energetic, confident and eager. I always enjoyed being able to hold it in and feel that fire, not that I need to feel that but using it to be confident, show self discipline. Now the one thing that is annoying is wet dreams, and the really uncomfortable ness downstairs around day 5-10, just to pee feels more strange. But those are the few things that made it hard to get past 7-10 days. But so far, so good! Hope you guys learn a few things from reading and are inspired or to inspire me! Good things are happening, and things are trending upwards! I will let you know the progress!
     
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    Day 5:
    Hello everyone hope your day was as well as mine. A few things I noticed today was a lot more energy flowing through me as I went through the work day. At one point I felt I had almost too much which made me feel strange and anxious. Other then that, I felt confident, almost cocky at times but level headed. Things I would shy away from I just went and did it and that was it. My sex drive urges were pretty high in the morning hours, but I simply ignored them and accepted them being there. Obviously what worked for me was moving around, thinking, learning and planning. When I sat idle for too long it would become easy to get an erection which isn't something I want in public! One of the things I pondered today was; what will I do if I go on a date? I get easily turned on with a lady, but the whole getting an erection is a bit embarrassing! Maybe it will get easier! I will say that I got a lot done today and I felt really positive, a certain spark of fire in my voice and in the way I feel. I am hoping that I don't get a wet dream, or blue balls type feeling down stairs. Those two things always got in the way of these streaks to the point where I thought, whats the point in going past 5 days for example. But the whole point in the experiment is to find out! Onwards to day 6!
     
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    Day 6:
    Day # 6 is now in the books. But not with some interesting tidbits. I felt a lot more frustrated about things, impatient at work a few times. For example when someone couldn't hear me, I felt like being mad about that. But there were some pros such as being able to be emotionally feel happy and speak with clarity and power. My singing for example has improved since I can tug into that energy. So far the extra testosterone has made my sleep a little bit less of a good quality as well, that will probably go away in time I think. Not much random thoughts about thinking of sex, or things that could turn me on. I mean if I were to start to think about it; I would have no problem getting an erection but that isn't something I want to do at all or in public haha. I have been working on channeling that energy into work, thinking positive, doing for others, my music, working out ect. I do feel I am more confident and less likely to hold back if I wanted to say what I needed to say: negative or bad. I could see that coming in handy for approaching a girl for example. I will say I do have moments where I am thinking: 'Whats the point?' 'I can't wait to see what it feels like to J/O after several days.' 'I'm not really doing this am I?' 'You will just get a wet dream, do you really want that to happen?' I have to commit and realize its about the power, the feeling, dedication and discipline. Its about fixing my reward circuit in my brain and enjoying my life naturally, instead of being on my phone for no reason, or procrastination, or worrying. Its about the can do attitude in life, achieving my goals, being happy with failing or rejection as that will eventually lead to success!
     
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    DAY 7
    • I decided to use bullet points to make it easier to read my thoughts and observations!
    • My energy level was insane today, I didn't need to take a nap when I got home.
    • My motivation to get things done showed at work. It was slow today and usually I would be on my phone and being bored and tired. But instead I kept busy and I managed to clean out this whole area in the warehouse! That's a big win if there was one.
    • My sex drive is high but I didn't let it give me erections, or give it attention per say. Meditation is helping with this, and also by keeping busy: Whether it be exercise, hobbies, learning ect.
    • No wet dreams yet, or leaking when I take a piss. I have a theory that if you arouse yourself too much during the day, these things will happen. If you don't think about it, the less it will happen I believe.
    • I am on day 4 of no cell phone use. The only use I allow myself is at night to check notifications, ect. If I get a text I will answer it. But that is about it. I will only use my phone for banking apps, calculator, camera, notes ect.
    Onto Friday and new charted territory! Lets go!
     
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    Sounds good :)
     
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    Day 8!
    • Usually in the past few years I always did 7 days (Or I tried to! It was worse actually!) A few times I made it to 8 days straight. And I think at one point I went 2 days and then had a wet dream and then 7 days straight. So this is considered new territory!
    • My urges were here and there, but I never let them truly manifest! I felt a bit tired today since I had band practice till late on Thursday; and since I get up at 5am, I slept maybe 6 hours!
    • It was a hot 90 degree day here in the north east of Pennsylvania; and with that it effected my mood. Combine that with feeling a bit tired and hot and 8 days streak led to a bit of irritableness to others, and thinking negative.
    • I wasn't as productive today, but I still got some things done. I rewarded myself with some ice cream (And since i'm a skinny 140 lb 25 year old, its useful!) I did managed to get some drums done for one of my songs so that is a win to me.
    • I couldn't help but feel a bit of loneliness in the evening, feeling a bit sad. Thinking why my friends don't hit me up or wishing I had a social life on this Friday. Going on this streak has my emotions more peaked, and my sex drive ramped up. I feel in a way my brain is working to try to get me laid or get me close to it. I found myself on tinder and changing up my profile and sending a few messages online. When you are turned on you seem driven to do things you wouldn't really feel like doing if your used to masturbating every other day. I love it and I hate it at times; but time to live with it!
    I plan to be productive this weekend, do things for others, finish my song, practice, and who knows! What do you guys think your biggest challenge is in your streak?
     
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    Good question. I am not sure what my biggest challenge is... So far this has actually been a pretty smooth one :) but there have been those moments when i have to resist an urge.
     
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    Day 9: No Wet Dreams yet! ​
    • I am sort of picturing the inside of my balls like the place I work at, a really cramped warehouse and no room for anything but somehow the work life goes on haha. I would imagine my body is breaking down the sperm into better use. I think what is helping is by limiting thoughts that turn me on.
    • I felt decent today, a bit lazy but I'm allowed. I did quite a bit of yard work, food shopping. I had a strange experience at Wal Mart where I saw this mother with her baby, she had to be like in her 30's. I genuinely grinned and said you have a cute baby. The lady kind of mumbled thanks, and walked away. My intent wasn't to be a pick up artist. I laughed at that scenario but it was rather strange.
    • I also couldn't help my notice as I was getting things done around the day was the reactions of everyday people doing what they have to do. It seems a lot of people seemed stressed and are annoyed as they go through there days. I wish them well, but being conscious of having a better mindset has made me see things about other people: good or bad.
    • Later I did feel a bit of mild pressure downstairs, but it isn't so bad just curious. It could be nothing.
    • My sex drive was alright today, nothing crazy, no random erections except in the morning. Which I am glad because I did envision being overwhelmed by the slightest trigger and being in public and embarrassed about pop up erections. That could be a problem when I go on dates for example.
    Question of the day to ponder upon! What was the biggest surprise about NoFap that you thought would happen but something else happened?

    And Motivation of the day: It is not the peak you hope to get to; but the climb!
     
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    Day 10: It feels nice up here! ​
    First and foremost I have hit 10 days and when I think about it; I never been at this point of not doing it for that long since well before masturbation. What I am learning is that my feelings are a lot more forward. If I feel sad I really feel sad. If I'm annoyed I will let it be known. If I am happy I'm really happy. I got a lot of things done today; a lot of yard work. I went into work for a few a hours and got a project done. Today was also the day I would let myself check up on the websites I missed this past week (Just in case your just reading this post: I have stopped internet / cell phone use for useless things, social media. I will allow myself to go on facebook to post, or see notifications at the end of the day. But the mindless binge scrolling. This is to make better use of my time.) And what I have learned from this past week when I caught up was that I did not miss out on any new things! I felt jipped, like I was expecting cool updates for things I'm interested in. But that made me feel good with my goal of keeping off!

    My urges were not really effecting me, I feel like I'm in a flat line period. I still get morning arousal but not sexual feelings going on. I do feel like however, that abstaining from masturbation is making me really confront my emotions, sexual needs, need to socialize. I felt a bit depressed today in the middle of the day. My birthday is coming up next Friday and I turn 26 years old and I feel like my social life is non existent sometimes. I am in a band, and have friends but everyone is so busy its hard to ever hang out. I just kind of wish they were text me, instead of me always having to engage conversation. I guess I was also frustrated at still being a virgin and having a tough time with online dating and wonder when my opportunity to go on a date will ever happen. These things were amplified from the abstaining. Like I want to meet new people but I don't know the best way to do that. I don't like going to places by myself, that's a bit nerve racking sometimes. So that whole depression mode was based on these things I wrote above. But luckily I am a strong man, with good values, friendly, creative, confident, does the right things in life. A girl will kill to have a man like me in there life, I must practice patience; but its always good to vent every now and let your emotions out.

    Now I stay strong for a wonderful new week of new challenges, goals, observations and discoveries up ahead. I keep this streak alive! This is uncharted territories.

    Question of the day: How do you deal with loneliness?

    And Motivation: In order to succeed we must believe we can! (Hard to do when your tired, or lack motivation! But try! For my own sake and yours!)
     
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    Day 11: Today is hard!​
    Today really has tested me. All because I almost had a wet dream, I was able to stop it in the dream. It was strange it was like a dream inside of a dream; inception if you will haha. The morning hours I felt like a raging deer in the middle of mating season. It was just so intense, I need release badly. When I went to pee I could feel my body trying to get rid of overflowing supplies, I held it in luckily. I will be honest I am not sure if I relapse tonight or not. If I do, well that is alright in my book. (I'm not really addicted to porn anyway.) If I don't awesome. Its been making my mood very up and down, very angry to very happy. For those who can do up to a month and more, kudos to you guys I don't know how the heck you deal with wet dreams and the such. I will still keep this journal up here to add thoughts and experiences with the process. I did manage to get a lot done on 6 hours of sleep, got some overtime. I worked on some drum practice and felt efficient and in a flow. I am very grateful for that, and appreciative. The weather was nice today, I'm sure that helps! A bike ride was just what the doctor ordered when I came home from work. I'll let you guys know what happens tomorrow.

    Question of the day: Has failure made you a stronger man?

    And motivation: Its not the fact you fell down, but how you get back up. What will you do about it?
     
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    Well I did fail last night but I dont feel bad about it. It didn't feel like best thing ever but it felt better then feeling my prostate area inflamed and full. That does not mean I'll start doing it every day or other but until my body tells me via almost a wet dream or other signals. I can still ignore being horny so thats success in its self!
     
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    Day 2b:
    (I'm doing this on my phone hence lack of normal formatting.)
    So observations in past 2 days. I had a migraine all in the second half of day. Did not feel any urges. I blame weather change and allergies. They are hitting hard. I went to be completely early and slept 9 hours. I didnt get to practice or paint but i did get some other things done before the migraine became super unbearable. I feel a bit foggy today in a sense of feeling tired from over sleeping.
     
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    Day 2B: Continued!
    This day is actually going well! I did feel foggy today and kind of felt less energetic to do things but as the day went on I felt like I concurred the day! I had a great drum practice, and organized well. I kind of stopped the phone detox, but am only doing it in a way that doesn't take away from what I have to do. Well see how well that goes. I do feel very positive and energetic right now!

    Some other things I noticed in the past year:
    I had this theory about why back when I used to masturbate that if I did it a couple days in a row it would not feel that well, and its because I probably started using it up. That explains why if I go 5 days and then did it, then another 5 days. I still had a supply left to use. That may explain why my sex drive urges go up sooner rather then later. Which tells me this end of the week may be hard for me, but we will cross that bridge when we get there!

    Question of the day: What distractions get in the way of your life?

    Motivation: Aim for the moon. If you miss, you will hit a star!
     
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    Day 3b:
    I woke up today feeling pretty restful accept at work I felt some hints of irritableness. It was annoying, but I remembered to not question the mood or feeling and just accepting. A lot of times we forget that we let not so good moods linger around when we start questioning it and being annoyed by it. My urges were alright, nothing too crazy, just calm and normal. Work was a bit slow, but I kept busy by being creative and cleaning up a lot today in the warehouse. I am totally looking forward to the weekend where my friends have invited me out for some birthday celebrations. And also I nearly forgot that my birthday is tomorrow, big 26! Its just a number to me and it will feel like any other ordinary day. I have band practice later which I can't wait to go to, I just bought some good in ear monitors for me to use when I am drumming and singing since it can be hard for me to hear others. I can't wait to see how better my singing will get, and the tightness and feel I will for go. Now onto Day 4b! Keep it up everyone!

    Question of the day: What are your hobbies that make you feel happy?
    Motivation of the day: Stop watching the clock; do what it does. Keep going!
     
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    Hey man! Good to see you are staying positive!

    To answer your question about hobbies, I also play the drums, and getting behind the kit is pretty effective for me to fight my lazy self and get into a good mood.
     
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    ^ Nice, its always cool to see a fellow drummer! What drumset do you use or favor? I have a set of red 7 pcs DW performance series that I'm in love with!

    Day 4B
    Here we are on day 4b, my birthday as well. So there was that extra flair of energy in the air all day, despite me sleeping 6 hours because of band practice on Thursday night; oh well I lived! The day went by pretty slow but I did have an instance of anger while arguing about politics: (Note to self: Don't talk about politics at work Kyle!) My urges were not really anything today which was good. I did feel some sexual frustration at a restaurant seeing some cute girls with other guys and wondering how the heck they got those girls. But overall I felt pretty good today, felt a little bit lazy today too. I accepted that feeling and let it be; I feel it is important to not fret over being lazy, tired, sad, whatever. Instead I will fret over being happy haha. I am also on day 2 of meditation via headspace; what a good site to use! I feel it is useful for me when I am trying to get focused or when I'm trying to de clutter my mind. I highly recommend it everyone! So onto day 5!

    Question of the day: What other life changes are you guys making in your daily life?
    Motivation of the day: You are only confined by the walls you've built yourself!
     
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    5B: Saturday Surplus
    I slept in a bit today and luckily no surprises in the morning; my sex drive has been some what absent. Which is good for streak reasons but rather interesting. I got a lot of chores and things done today which makes me pretty damn proud. I felt a little bit lazy as it was sort of rainy and cloudy today but managed to clean out the garage I have. I mixed some of my songs that I recorded the other day, they are turning out well. I am pretty excited about tonight as I will be going out with some of my friends; it should be interesting on how it turns out. I would rather no overthink it, I do get anxious when I go out. I may have a drink or two, but I remember to always enjoy the moment, no expectations and just go with the flow! Hope everyone else is doing well today!

    Question of the day: How do you deal with anxiety?
    Motivation of the day: The hungry dog runs faster!
     
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    Thanks for supporting my journal thread :) For anxiety I think a walk helps ease it. Also I have to live not in the past or the future, but in the ever abiding "MEOW".

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    Hey that's nice, I also own a DW Performance series set! Still struggling to get the sound I want out of the snare though, I played on electronic drums for so long I never really got to learn how to tune them.
     
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    ^ Breathing exercises have been super helpful for sleeping and calming down, I do it at work sometimes. Meditation is another one! Thanks for that!

    ^ Yeah a good hike or walk does a lot of wonders! Thanks and no problem I enjoy supporting other journals!

    ^ Yeah I found by using a Remo reverse coated dot and high / medium tension on the top and super tight on the bottom gets me a good sound. There are a lot of cool tuning videos for snares, check them out! Tuning is such a hassel its not like changing guitar strings haha.

    Day1C: Its alright.
    After a good night hanging out at a club bar by my house with some awesome friends I decided to see what it felt like after 5 days. It was kind of waste since I had a few beers and I was tired, so I really should have kept it going. It doesn't stop my growth or progress. I still am getting better each week with confidence, getting over anxiety. Like last night beer would have triggered anxiety and chest pain things like last year but it didn't. I did have a few moments where I felt like I would run out of breath when I talked, but nothing ever happened after it. I just ignored it, but doing that I will get used to it and better. So I am making strides I'd say! Now for my next streak I hope to go at least 7 days. Today I would say was laid back, rainy and cold as me and my mother visited my grandmother and spent some time conversing and relaxing. I couldn't have pictured a more better relaxing day despite feeling tired and a tiny bit hung over haha. Well onto next week! We got this!

    Question of the day: What would you say is your biggest win in the past week?

    Motivation and lesson of the day: It is alright to fail, you learn from it! Its about the experience and lessons from it!
     
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