Learning my body to want to work

Hey together,

I registered today while reaching Day 19 today. In theory, because today I failed. And then again. Two times. I am planning to stop masturbating and porn for 100 days minimum and write down things here:

100 Days of Nofap

This is where I may share more personal things, but to share some basic things, I'm from Germany, got 21 years old yesterday, never had a real relationship, sex is very rare. I managed to build some good self convenience and making friends over the last years while not having such kinds of things in my earlier school time, however there were a lots of crazy things going on in the last two years. Met many people, had different jobs, and got in touch with all kinds of people with all kinds of backgrounds, cultures and so on. That really built me. I wouldn't say I still have social anxieties, however I lack the energy, the motivation etc.
I am currently doing a vocational training in the first year. I like going to gym, sometimes doing other sports. I stopped gaming years ago, however still spending too much time in front of the computer watching youtube videos and... yeah, porn. And I'm drinking too much, however I could stop for a few weeks during my nofap period. However I'm okay with my behaviour towards alcohol. I dont take other drugs, I dont smoke anymore (did for a year or so). Life is okay right now but too dull. Want to be able to have relationships, want to have more energy, want to fulfill dreams. Like doing music. Which I can't afford in terms of time, money and motivation. Nothing I couldn't work on if the last thing worked.

Greetings from Germany

M.

 

Thanks! I believe that too, I always found my way to discipline when I really want things