Last streak. Sorry Everyone..

At the title says I think I'll probably be leaving this site after this streak. Masturbation has become a habit for me lately and I feel I'm not getting better.. As much as I wish. I wish I could channel this 2010 version of me when I actually quit and lived life to the fullest. Achieved my first girlfriend at the end of the summer.... I would love to reunite with this version of myself. But unfortunately I'm 27 and in my late 20's working full time, not enough time for everything anymore. My views about masturbating is that I don't see it as quite a bad thing.

I haven't had a real life relationship in about 4 years or sex in 6 years. Relationships with friends have gone sour or my ability to harmonize with them and keep contact. I've been hurt from a close friend who just doesn't bother to keep contact anymore. It's just very upsetting. I'm wondering if there is anybody ells in there is anybody ells having the same problems right now?

But this is it for me. Joining a few challenges and that's about it.

 

The past has to be used to make the good decisions in the present and the future, not to cry about it.
Fapping is unhealthy, you will end up with pied and other weaknesses.
The worst thing to do isnt to relapse but to give up.
But if u wanna live sad and addicted to ur hand, having failed relationd with women (cuz it wont disappear during a relation), if u are even able to get one because u think that fapping alone is better than sharing your life with smne. If u wanna live in your cave like a beast, and even beasts dont live that way so it is even worse, u are free to do it, but ur life is gonna be so dark.

 

Hm... I'm not sure if this is true. Because just above this, you say that you wish you could "get better" and go back to how you were when you were clean. So clearly, you recognize that that life was better. Why would it be better if there was nothing wrong with masturbation? Or with your habit?

I really encourage you to not give up, man. It sounds to me like you really want this, but you just don't think you can have it. That's not true. You can, it's just really hard sometimes.

 

Instead of me thinking about what your life is like and trying to fit your narrative. I'll tell you mine.

• I started PMO from the age of 17, and even though people say the younger you start the worse. I think it was equally bad for me to start then. Because my young adult/teenage life was spent PMO-ing.
• I couldn't get it up for real women, I was constantly upgrading my porn collection. I would skip events with friends or get irritated with them if they wanted to hang out longer.
• I subconsciously avoided opportunities to get closer/sexual with girls because of fear of my PIED. (I couldn't get it up with real women, only with porn)

Now I still feel depressed about it, I still want something to happen. I want to meet a nice girl and be able to perform sexually too. I failed for so long but I promised myself that I will be able to overcome this stupidity once and for all.

So what if you feel like you won't get any sex? Use that energy into your work! Go out there, exercise, become the best version of yourself you possibly can. Then maybe when a lady comes along, you know that your mind is free from all that pornography and you can perform without any fear. Not just for sex, but the rewards would help you in every aspect of life. It's really your choice but if I were you , I would continue.

 

Porn has always been the problem

 

Connection most likely. I've tried to talk to her again, but I always got unanswered after a few chats. I remember I sent her a "?" to see if she would even notice it.. It's not worth it anymore..

 

Could you take a break from the internet? Got to do what it takes to overcome the addiction.

 

Hey man I know it’s tough. I was in a better place when I was 21/22 and now I’m 26. I’ve been having similar feels lately like giving up saying to myself it’s just too hard, but not giving in to this crap anymore is absolutely 100% worth it every time you say no. Progress isn’t a straight line. Keep on marching through the trenches bro