Had a lapse yesterday with M. No porn but hangover and I think depression is really taking its toll. It is NYE and I know that it is just a day but feeling very lonely. Tonight my wife will be out and I am here with kids for a few days at least before I move out of the house on Wednesday. We had a talk about not fighting anymore which I am thankful for. I just need to start to love myself again and get well and stay free from porn. All for me bit dealing with it and separation us proving tough. Just hoping for some encouragement. Just need to get through this time and keep the dark thoughts away.