Kinky since childhood!! Advice needed

Discussion in 'Porn-Induced Sexual Dysfunctions' started by kinkaddict92, Aug 5, 2018.

  1. kinkaddict92

    kinkaddict92 Fapstronaut

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    Hi guys! I recently found NoFap and I am now on my 11th day. I am trying to do a hard reboot for at least around 60 days. But I feel my situation is kind of weird and wanted some advice on what might be best for me. I have tried to describe my situation below as succinctly as possible.

    Ever since I was around 5-7 years old and before I was exposed to any kind of porn whatsoever I have been interested in kinky or darker things. Whether it was watching a woman being kidnapped in a movie or other kinds of scenes involving some kind of restraint or power exchange, it has aroused and captured my interest since the very beginning. My first exposure to sexy females was through watching wrestling and WWE Divas matches and all my fantasies centered on some kind of Dominant/Submissive scenario whether it be wrestling or bondage related themes. I also remember having a great fascination with female feet from right around that age and it still continues today. I have never in my life been aroused by plain vanilla sex and even the very first time I watched it in the form of pornography it did not appeal to me.

    However, when I was introduced to pornography by my friends and they were fascinated with watching videos of sex and oral stimulation, I started watching videos that matched my tastes. Foot fetish videos and other kinds of BDSM and fetish themed videos. Sex I always felt was fun or rather a culmination after having indulged in these kinds of activities and sometimes I felt these activities were by itself greatly arousing and did not have to be followed by sexual intercourse. Later on in my late teens I found the BDSM community and was fascinated by it, but unfortunately I did not have partners and people to play with as I lived in a conservative region back then. So the only way I engaged or expressed my sexuality was through masturbation to fetish porn and fetish erotica. Now, I have moved to a region where I have plenty of women who are into BDSM and all the things I love. I am also now learning actual BDSM skills by going to workshops and conferences. But since I have accustomed myself so much to masturbating I think my penis has desensitized and I don't feel any pleasure when a woman touches me, but I feel pleasure when I touch myself.

    I see a lot of talk here of porn induced fetishes and how they fade away when you quit porn. But as I have laid out earlier, I think my interest in BDSM and kink is innate and my fetishes did not develop due to desensitization to vanilla porn but I was disinterested in vanilla porn right from the very beginning. I don't think my fetishes will go away after a reboot and I am not really very keen on losing them either. I really enjoy the wide variety of things that arouse me and I do get women who also want the same things. But I want to feel more pleasure in my genitals. So is going for a hard reboot for 60 days the best thing to do as I am only aiming to get back my sensitivity or is there anything else I need to do? And what do you think about my fetishes and kinks do you think a reboot would change or alter them even though they developed well before exposure to porn?
     
  2. Freddiefox

    Freddiefox Fapstronaut

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    From what I understand, what you liked before you will probably still like after.
    And yes staying away from doing things yourself will make significant changes and increased feeling and response.
     

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