k guys I really need some encouragement

Keep trying. You can do it. But remember to tell yourself that as well.

 

Don't try to quit. Quit. You will do it.

Trying implies that the possibility of relapsing is, well, possible. You are an addict if you consider yourself as being an addict. You are what you decide to be. 6h ago you reseted for the last time of your life. If that sounds scary, then you indeed will relapse, because you have not decided to quit.

Don't think in terms of goals, don't think in terms of streaks. What happens when you're not addict anymore? Life goes on, and you don't masturbate but do the things you always wanted to do instead.

Sorry if that sounds bitter, I swear on God that's not what I'm trying to achieve.

Oh and remember: fuck my opinion. There is no method. You are your own master.

 

Vavavoom, congratulations on not giving up. This is not the same is giving in. The first is permanent the second only temporary.

Do you know what triggered you initial lapse and subsequent relapses? You need to figure that out and then remove the temptation from your life. Do you have effective coping skills and are they still working? Just cause something worked before doesn't mean it will continue to work. As you challenges change so must your coping skills.

You have my complete respect and admiration for everything you have done and continue to do.

I hope this helps.

Geyser

 

Thank you Geyser! Exactly, that's what I'm talking about.


Well I haven't relapsed... I quit cold turkey. In Autumn 2012, I tried to quit, but as I precisely TRIED and did it for religious reasons when all I wanted was go back to it (besides I did not quit masturbation), I failed two months later and in September 2013 I started living alone for the first time of my life in London and it was HEAVEN. Watched loads and loads and loads of porn, Christ I spent an entire month bored as fuck doing ONLY gaming and porn and junk food. At this time it absolutely was heaven. What triggered me to start NoFap was an interview of the singer I was in love with, Bianca Casady, who happens to be my absolute artist role-model, where she states that in order to be more efficient creatively she stocks up libido. It was on January 1st night, I was alone at home, saying happy new year on xhamster to guys older than my father with cocks avatars, and I never felt that depressed (and mind you I have two suicide attempts due to PMO). So I decided I would try for three days, warned everyone on xhamster... And as I'm the most spontaneous girl in the world, I deleted my collection, and then my accounts, and blocked every one on Skype, and here am I.

I intended to relapse to be very honest. When I started I was nowhere near the mentality I have today, that's why I think I sound hypocritical and bitchy. But... in the first week of NoFap, my grandma died. It broke something in me, with extreme violence, I never would have thought. I was not that close to her, but it was the first time ever I witnessed death so close to me. And so it made me take the decision, but it's only now that I realize it. At first I was such a wreck,I was like "I'm doing this for you, it's my present for you", and then I realized it was stupid, that only doing this for myself would make me successful. So I'm doing this for me... with her help. She's in heaven, I KNOW she's a saint. Only saints make miracles. I'm a miracle. I don't say this in an arrogant fashion; it's just, being as happy as I am right now when I was chronically depressed and just the saddest girl I know is a miracle, really. I completely recognize that it's only the trauma that made me take the decision, and it's the hardest of the hardest thing in the world. But if you do it, then it's over. You're successful for life. I will never go back. I still have hardcore urges sometimes, but I don't relapse. It's a fact. I don't have any tips or advice or anything to be frank, only thing I can offer is support. It's not that I can't, I don't have any blockers and will not have some. I totally can watch porn or masturbate, and that's what makes all the difference... I will never relapse. I have took the decision and temptation is not a sin. I have 99 problems, but PMO ain't one.

No no, no admiration, I don't deserve it, really. I am the one who's impressed by you! Quitting is seriously hard. And really, against addiction, we're not that different. Only difference is people that try to quit because they're addicts, and people who already have quit and aren't addicts anymore... Besides what you talk about is exactly what I'm doing, as I'm no addict anymore ^_^ Everything I do, my three goals, everything is for one reason: being happy. For all the nurturing and care giving stuff, well I'm a Catholic. I completely trust God. I think I have a motherhood vocation and that's perfect. And having quit PMO was my first step towards it.

And if you weren't talking to me: I'm dead sorry, I'm socially awkward and half the time I don't know what I'm talking about. Sorry for spamming your thread Vavavoom!

 

My best streak was 15 days, then only 2-3 days, then 5 days. Now I'm committed to reaching 15 days again. Then I'll keep going. If I can do it, you can do it too. And I know you can do it. The power is in all of us.