Just rejected a blowjob

Discussion in 'Abstinence, Retention, and Sexual Transmutation' started by Niquel Angel, Mar 26, 2019.

  1. Niquel Angel

    Niquel Angel Fapstronaut

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    So, I come from a public bathroom at the train station, and there was this guy taking suspiciously too long to finish peeing, I looked at him and he looked quite hot to me. I'm bi sexual, though there are few guys that actually turn me on.

    I noticed he was trying to look at my dick and I started getting hard, and couldnt get my Stream started... So he ended up offering to suck my dick in the booths nearby, and I didnt know what to do, so I just put my dick in my pants, with a full hard on boner, and lefr without even taking a pee.

    I feel good i was strong enough to not let him do It, but i Also feel like I could have just done It and started from now on my PMO abstinence, and I would have enjoyed my self very much for first time in long time. I dont know if I did right. I mean I'm only on a 6 day Streak, its not even that much. I dont know...
     
  2. You'll have plenty of time for that in the future. Just concentrate on doing what's best for you, right now. I would be just like you if a woman offered me one, I'd say no and then regret it later lol. You did good.
     
  3. What possible value could you have gotten from a total stranger who offers sexual favours to random strangers in public restrooms? It is, in every aspect, a bad situation that will lead to bad life. If you ever accept something like this, you can expect to go down the path many gays do, hunting for men in public restrooms, having tons of promiscuous sex and getting loads of sexual diseases.
     
  4. Infrasapiens

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    He was probably going to steal your kidneys anyways.
     
  5. AlphaZ

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    This is too good
     
  6. Even if you would not be on abstinence it is probably not a good idea to let strangers in public bathrooms to suck you off. You don't know the guy, what if he's a biter?
     
  7. renard49

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    The same thing happened to me over the weekend. I was at a club and there were a few guys that turned me on, I'm gay. One of them saw my erection in my jeans and want to take me home to give me a blow job. I refused. I'm starting to think that maybe I should wear a chastity device when I go out to a club or on a date.:eek:
     
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  8. Lot Yanisin

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    I refused a woman a few years back...the same one twice!!!
    Nothing to do with PMO...I just didn't want to feel guilty when I'd see my wife...

    I did hang out with her alone...but never hinted at doing such a thing...she got on her knees as I was on the couch...and then there was another time when I thought she was trying to show me something upstairs...

    ...escorted me into the closet of a room (I was like "uhhh, why am I in the closet?") and again back down on her knees ready to go...

    More to share but I'll stay on subject about bj turndowns.

    She would've been better than my wife likely.
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    Dammit.
     
  9. need4realchg

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    Lol. I have rejected bjs twice as well, both women one was older than me, other was younger. I regretted rejecting both of them a few months later. So I know what you mean. I told my wife about the first but not the second.

    I have had guys offer too... I did Uber for a few months and I had that. I thought it was so gross. The kid was 18 just out of high school and lived in a hUge mansion ; I felt bad for his parents. He tried everything to get me to do it. He said “you can even leave the meter running.” I couldn’t get him to get out of the car until I said, I can’t believe this, wait a sec let me record this. “. Finally he got out. Yuck.

    I bet it’s a regular thing for some folks.
     
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  10. Lot Yanisin

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    That was awkward. Was the woman for you unprovoked?
    I know it's not a great idea to hang out with someone other than the misses multiple times...

    It was a veeeeeery rough time for me. I felt 0 connection with the misses, that we couldn't get along for nothing....I just wanted that same feeling back of undivided attention/appreciation...plus I was fighting borderline alcoholism from repressed sorrow...not a great combo.

    This is the first time I've ever mentioned it ever, outside personal prayer. How'd it come up with her?

    Thing is...I'll still think about her at times....whether it's the three or four times I rejected... (even straddled me where I sat...I had my arms extended to not grab/touch....I do admit the second time I copped a feel of that juicy (__|__). )

    You worry, too, if you could turn it down again? I do. And that in itself upsets me... Don't want to pin it all on the misses.....but ....Cosmo mags and those "make your man feel like a king" wouldn't hurt to read once in a while.
     
  11. need4realchg

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    The women in both examples were unprovoked, the first one was a lot older than me and basically just saw me in a hotel and lured me into my own hotel room by asking me for a bottle of water. I will write the story in my journal today so as not to take away from this thread.

    The other girl was much younger and was a player on my soccer team. She asked me to help her one night, she said she was out with a friend and was unable to go home because she didn't have a trustworthy ride. I got out of my bed and drove downtown (30min) to pick her up. When I was going to drop her off, she went for me, and I told her I was okay.

    My relationship with my wife at the time was fine/more or less; I did not act out because of my relationship--I never have actually. But I have acted out a LOT. I was unable to explain that until very recently.

    As for how I shared it-- I was telling her that I felt horribly guilty for being tempted, even though I choose correctly, I felt flooded with guilt that I wanted to do it, even though I didn't. For me, having evidence that I wanted to do the wrong thing just increased my frustration with my own spiritual condition. I wanted to do right and LOVE/want right.

    I eventually decided to do wrong since I wanted it; instead of trying to keep faking my spirituality. Kinda a weird way, but I am not sure how to be comfortable denying my lower body indefinitely hoping it will change with God's conversion power. I think I'm upset with God for not changing my heart to match His. I don't yet have a easy answer for this.
     
  12. Lot Yanisin

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    Appreciate your openness my dude.

    I don't think keeping your lower body in check is ever supposed to be easy. I understand Bible principles behind it...I get that there's tremendous benefit...not just physical...but emotional...and being in good standing with 'the Big Man'.
    In today's world...it's just so damn frustratingly difficult to keep your thoughts clean...

    I, too, feel upset at God sometimes for having those principles in place in the first place. I can't feign ignorance, which is upsetting... and being surrounded by it in our modern society... I'm upset at the idea of not being able to get everlasting life because of my junk... and no longer wanting to control myself... and I feel like "well...sh*t... this sh*t ain't always easy, man. I'm in a spiritual war going on...caught in the middle...I didn't ask for this sh*t. I just want to have been in existence post-Armageddon when things are chill and nobody worries about this crap anymore. But I have to...and it can cost me my conscious...possibly my life, too. Fkuc!"

    But it's not His fault either. We have free will.
     
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  13. need4realchg

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    We think a lot alike! I encourage you man. I am trying to be more honest instead if idealistic about my feelings and desires. I think knowing what to do and knowing what to do with our feelings are two completely different levels of faith.

    I could and still can give eloquent sermons on what to do. But I am a complete dwarf on how to deal with emotions or feelings. My wife tells me these are two different things and I can’t even distinguish any difference. She’s an expert on feelings and emotions though. I just hate being inferior at anything. I excel at everything I do—- except understanding feelings. And this one thing has singlehandedly undone lots of good in my mind and marriage.

    I would welcome you as a AP , sounds like you could understand me.
     
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  14. Lot Yanisin

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  15. I never rejected a blowjob but blowjobs rejects me every time :D
     
  16. Lot Yanisin

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    Have you skipped your "man slut phase" in life or you're right in it?

    Never had it...
    now feeling the urges to experience...
    at arguably one of the worse moments
    a man can feel such a phase in his life...

    #KidsTakenAwayScare
     
  17. need4realchg

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    Hahaha love that quote!

    I hope this isn’t a trigger... but most bjs aren’t worth the kips that give them. Not many know what they are doing. If you find one that knows otherwise .... it’s a whole new world.
     
  18. need4realchg

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    I skipped mine btw totally got married thinking I was immune to it. Nope. At 30 I did the lion king roar and didn’t regret it in part because I needed the experience and maturity To understand and appreciate what and who I had/have
     
  19. Lot Yanisin

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    Zoinks.

    Well...like said... #KidsTakenAwayScare
    Plus the Big Man upstairs.

    But this man slut phase is hitting me haaaaaaaaaard the past two years.

    Early mid life crisis or something me thinks
     
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  20. need4realchg

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    I hear you man, send me a PM--I think you need to talk about it :)
     

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