Just another log

Discussion in 'Uncategorized Reboot Logs' started by golyadkin, Jan 11, 2019.

  1. golyadkin

    golyadkin Fapstronaut

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    Today i got a ugly relapse...
    I was "half asleep" in the dawn and just MO. 6 hours later and I was PMOing hard on my computer.
    It was extremely awkward because I didn't have much control over my thoughts when i did it. Seemed like I was dreaming... At least I've got some interesting insights about my addiction and how I'll overcome it. This section also reminded how disgusting PMO is.

    Let's start again. My goal is to keep it "forever", don't PM or O till i get married. It's gonna be hard but may God have mercy upon my soul.
    Our Lady of the Light, pray for us!
     
  2. golyadkin

    golyadkin Fapstronaut

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    # Day 0: gym and new plans

    Went to the gym, workout hard and got home, i'm felling much better! During this time I've been thinking about what I'm doing with my free time. I've one month left untill my vacation ends and I'm just wasting all this time browsing web, playing some stupid game and sleeping more than necessary. Gotta change it.

    I shall finish my actual lecture today and I'd like to read more books, so I'm going to read at least 3 books this month. I'll cut off my internet surfing and YouTube lurking, it's worthless and time-consuming. This forum and some small offline tasks will be my only reason to turn on the computer.

    I hadn't any urges yet, though I've taken some suspect keeks at the gym.

    Wish me luck!
     
  3. golyadkin

    golyadkin Fapstronaut

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    # Day 0: relapsing, reading, internet addiction, spiritual life

    I failed... The book I'm reading has some sex scenes and it triggered me. I finished my read and sleep (lol i'm sleeping too much this month) then woke up and turned on the computer... This was a serious mistake. I fapped for the worst kind of porn, and it got me felling that bad.

    At least I finished that book and started a new one. Probably I shall finish this untill this week ends. Reading is an amazing way to full your free time.
    I'm not really addicted to internet but it eats a good amount of my free time and I want change it. Most of time I'm just surfing, reading some random articles/posts, this is not useful in any ways. So I'll try to redunce the time I spent doing this shit.

    My spiritual life is completely dead. Man, I really need to restart praying and reading spiritual things. More than that, I need to go the mass and confessionary more often...
    My goal is to pray the rosary (only the mistery of the day) everyday. This is a small step yet, but with the Saint Mary's intercession, I'll overcome this horrible addiction.
     

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