How do you recover from a affair? I really don't know.... But I'm going to try. From a 2 years long staggered disclosure.. When I thought we had completed transparency and honesty and we were moving forward in his reboot and he was being sober.... Then, now this. If anyone has anything to be critical to say to how I handle this, and they haven't been in the same situation, I think you can leave it to yourself. It's my journal. I am going to write what I want. I don't tear others journals apart... Don't bring bullshit here to me. I may sound crass right now, but everything is very fresh and raw. I really just want to be able to process and understand everything that happened. I don't know if I can do that without writing some of it down. I am going to attempt to get some of my morning thoughts together and possibly write a first entry today I think. I haven't really eaten or slept since Wednesday night. I feel really hostel and fragile all at the same time. I just want to find some peace. I just don't know if it's obtainable.