Hey all! On this day I start my journal on Nofap. I'm willing to open up my thought processes in this journal and I type a lot of thoughts so hopefully it'll be interesting for a good read. EDIT: 13/01/2018 I achieved my target of reaching 35 days at the end of November, but I ended my streak there unfortunately I now have no target by number of days. My new goal is to continue this journey until I reach the better me where I can truly thrive in life What do I want? I want to better myself and achieve the best version of me. And I want to see how that version compares to who I am when I do PMO. I first encountered P at a super young age probably around middle school, and M when I was 13. When I first M'd I was thinking about a girl from school (the shame!). I don't want none of that anymore, no more fantasizing and feeling guilty about it. No more feeling sorry for myself when I know I can be better. Some things I want to do through this is increase my motivation, so I can pursue things like my interest in music production. I want to pick up basketball again as I've been getting very strong urges to play recently, even dreams of playing like a god. Also, it may take longer but I'd like to find a girl. I want a relationship with meaning. Doesn't have to be 'the one' kinda thing, but I want something that's worth investing time and love into. Hope you can join me on this little journey! *Added difficulty level of urges from 1-10 This is a broad measure depending on intensity and frequency at its highest point during the day. A relapse doesn't have to be at 10 for me, if I didn't resist at all and I just surrendered. I hope I won't have to enter that. *Added a title, might keep doing this if I want to consistently add narrative I've always liked fiction and creating stories. This feels like a place where I can consistently put in effort that will go for more than a page or two.