Journal

Discussion in 'Uncategorized Reboot Logs' started by Tom30, Nov 10, 2018 at 3:32 PM.

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    So i read that keeping a journal is a good idea and apparently its ok to do it here so here goes...

    Day 6.
    Halfway through reading the ybop book. Love the scientific approach combined with real guys own experiences.

    Been feeling exhausted the last few days, not sure if this is nofap related or what but hoping it passes soon. The last 2 days ive had to sleep for a few hours after getting in from work then also sleeping 8+ hours at night. On the bright side woke up yday morning with a boner, first time in i dont know how long.

    Also managed to go out today to get a few things for the house and proper food for the week, been too reliant on junk food lately. Havent done a full grocery shop for months, going to the supermarket felt unsurmontable, so cautiously optimistic social anxiety might be lessening slightly.

    Spent all day alone as SO was busy but did not pmo which is good.

    Also deleted porn on phone and photovault app for privately storing images. Should have done sooner but had forgotten it was there.
     
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    Day 7

    Had a dream last night i was in a relationship with a man who went off to war, when he came home and we were alone i undressed him. No actual sex in the dream - or if there was i dont remember - but it was very erotically charged.
    Woke up with morning wood.
    Alone at home this morning but not experiencing any significant cravings. Visiting family for lunch this afternoon and spending evening with SO, not times i would pmo anyway so today should be in the bag.
    Still feeling tired and low level headache that comes and goes. Hopefully this lifts soon.
     
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    Day 7 upate.

    Technically Day 8 as its after midnight. Updating now as tomorrow is so busy i wont have time.

    Decided to try cold shower earlier after reading about all the benefits. Honestly could barely catch my breath during it and afterwards i felt shakey and weak but that passed. Will give it a few more attempts and see how i get on. Didnt feel as exhausted this evening so maybe it helped.

    Dinner with family. Evening at home with SO.

    Meals prepped for tomorrow which is good, actually prepared lunch for once. Work until 5 tomorrow then study in evening at local library until 9 or 10. Shouldnt present any difficulties in avoiding pmo. Busy few days ahead, will update again when possible.
     
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    Day 8

    So today did not go as planned.

    Had a meeting this morning and usually would be struggling to stay alert and stop my eyes closing but today that did not happen which made me hopeful that I was getting my energy back. However, was able to leave work at lunch so decided to go home, change, eat and gead to library to study and work on essay for upcoming deadline. After eating, the familiar exhaustion hit me like a sledgehammer. Closed my eyes and ended up sleeping for hours. Still feel tired now.

    Trying to study from home but difficulty getting motivated. Should go to library but feel so tired im not even sure about driving. This evening will be challenging; home alone with laptop on (for studying). This is when i would usually log on to the chat room, trawl tumblr or go on the cam site. SO out for dinner with a friend.
    Plan of action is: Try and focus on work. Keep nofap forum open on phone to stay motivated. Eat dinner. Shower.
    This is really the first significant test of motivation and endurance.
     

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