"Give me my GOLD" ///////////////////////////////////////////////////// PB: 45 SILVER ///////////////////////////////////////////////////// Accounting about not damaging myself with PMO. - Monk Mode - Daily reports. And don't be too laconic. - Punishments. .Relapse: light punishment; and write a 250 word report explaining why I relapsed, and apologizing. .Relapse 2 times in the same day: medium punishment (run 5km); and write a 500 word report. .Relapse 2 days in a row: severe punishment (donate money to a political party that I dislike); and write a 1000 word report. .Light Edging (started on 08/24/2018): very light punishment .Heavy edging (started on 09/24/2018): light punishment .Be creative about PMO (started on 09/13/2018): very light punishment- What I will consider a relapse: Voluntary P or M or O. Also, voluntary access to hot girls social media, because it's how my relapses on long streaks usually begins.- What I will consider edging Induce an erection Touch when erected Look when erected Skin retreat (unless if doing that to clean) Searching for sex related stuff on the internet-Ideas for punishments: walk around the block; cold shower; wear uncomfortable clothes (shirtless in winter, and heavy jacket in summer); use a bad hairstyle (or clothes) for a day; ice (hand in a bucket of ice); take the stairs instead of the elevator; talk to strangers; donate money to a political party that I dislike; run 5km. -Rating system (started on 08/20/2018) Besides the streak counter, I will use a rating system, to have a less sensitive way to measure my results. If I relapse, my rank lowers 1 step. Then, to rank up again, I need to do a streak of days equivalent to the gap between the current rating and the higher one. Example: if I relapse and go down from Platinum to Gold, then I need to do 30 days to go to Platinum again. IRON 7 BRONZE 15 SILVER 30 GOLD 55 PLATINUM 90 DIAMOND 180 MASTER 1Y GRANDMASTER 2Y ELITE 5Y LEGENDARY 10Y THE ONE 20Y -Mind tendencies evaluation system (started on 10/08/2018) From day to day my mind wanders through 4 aspects directly related to sexuality. I think that being aware about it helps me dealing with urges. P (porn) M (masturbation) RS (real sex) RO (romance) Also, the intensity of the engagement with those aspects varies, so I made the following scale, from 1 to 5: x X X X - Emergency procedure It was designed to deal with the scenarios where the sexual thoughts have grown too much over the course of hours or days. So, it's not the procedure to use in the case of acute sudden urges. 1 leave the house and go do your work outside. 2 if it's not possible to leave, then stop all your usual activities and start doing things related to your NoFap commitment: perfecting your journal; browsing NoFap sites; reading scientific stuff related to NoFap. Do that for HOURS, until you feel 100% safe again. -Compendium of Mind Tricks Those are the tricks that my mind tries on me, in order to convince me to relapse. I think that knowing then and being aware of then makes it easier to resist then. They are arguments to sustain the thesis "You should relapse". . Lower frequency argument: "OK, it's clear that you are doing better with PMO everyday, but you don't know if those good effects would be the same if you were doing PMO in low frequency, like once every 10 days. Actually, that would be the ideal frequency, because the pleasure would be grater, and the good effects of abstaining the other 10 days would be there. So, let's make a deal: instead of going full Monk Mode for 30 days, first do some tests with a lower frequency." . "Enjoy your creativity" argument: "I invented a new way to PMO, why don't you try it?" . New technology argument: "Why don't you try P on the new TV that you bought? You never watched in this resolution!" . New kind of woman argument: "You're having an interest on one kind of woman that you never got interested before; You never watched much P with this kind of woman; So, you should go and search for it, because it's a shame that you don't know how different is sex with that kind of woman." . Specific body part argument: I saw a girl sports clothes in an advertisement, and one specific part of the body got stuck in my mind, so it tried to trick me saying "why don't you go see some P with attention to that body part?" . Scientific eye argument: "P is an important factor in today's society. So, if you want to understand the society, you need to understand P (and to understand you need to watch)" . PMO as medication argument: Why don't you use P as a way to distract yourself when you are feeling sick. It would work as a painkiller, and it's so unusual to happen that the negative effects would be minor. You don't even need to MO. Actually, the side effects would be even smaller than those of an actual painkiller. PMO is like a medication, you should use it only in specific situations. My goals (to be updated as milestones are achieved) - DONE 30 days PMO free. I think this is a good starting point, because I have been there a few times in the past, but not in the last months. - FAILED 46 days. This will break my previous PB. - DONE 15 days. To go Silver again - FAILED 46d. To break my PB and get Gold - FAILED 15d. To go Silver again - DONE 7d. To go Bronze again - DONE 15d. To "Make myself Silver again" - 25d. To make it "Give me my GOLD" English is not my native language, so mistakes are expected to be present in the text.