This is my 1st nofap journal, but I've been a nofap member for a while, and I'm 64. I reset my counter today, and I'm making a new commitment to being free from PMO. I'm a Christian, have been married for 40+ years, and have a great family. I love my wife, and she is wonderful, but being intimate and making love have always been difficult for her. Her dad (a doctor) molested her and her sisters, which created a very dysfunctional family and many hardships for all of them. My wife and I have seen many Christian counselors over the years, and we finally got to a point in recent years where she is willing to make love once a week or so. However, the 1st 30 years were mostly sex-less and I used PMO to meet my sexual drive, and she is aware of it. This is still a struggle for me, and I resort to soft-porn occasionally. I'm working to be completely free of PMO, and challenging myself to memorize and pray through scriptures. Phil 4:8 and 4:12 are my goto verses this week.