Hello. Made my intro yesterday and hopefully keeping a journal for a while. Only recently found out just how big the nofap community is and after spending hours going over the forums here, I wish I had found this sooner. Porn has been with me for longer than is hasn't. I started watching before I was 8 and while I did not know what to do with porn yet I would sneak out of bed at night to watch cable porn that started at midnight. I enjoyed it a lot and then as the years progressed I figured out what it was for and masterbation became a whole new demon. Eventually I got a computer and the world of internet porn was even more shocking. Now I am 32, I don't have any friends, very much an adult virgin and have let life drive the steak of fear into me. Last year I made some big changes in my quest to retake my life. I have lost over 100 pounds and to my suprise with the diet I am on losing the weight was not as hard as I spent my life fearing. No longer am I letting toxic people pollute me with hate and guilt. I am putting myself slowly into more social situations. But the thing I had yet to address was my old friend porn and masterbation. When I changed my eating habits I lost food as my comfort and without realizing it began to seek porn more to make up for the high food gave me. I don't think I ever realized how much my masterbation habits affected me until my eating habits changed. I had been trying to loose porn for a while, I no longer have a computer out of fear of porn, I can't use my xboxone anymore because of porn and now I am close to getting ride of my tablet because I have begun making compromises with finding porn (f***ing twitter). With my weight goals almost reached I needed to address my porn issues so I can fully regain my life. I have tried going without before, my record is only 4 days so for now my goal is 5 days, not thinking ahead yet. This all goes towards my ultimate goal for 2018, meet women, hopefully have sex. Porn became a real excuse for not meeting women, not knowing how to meet them and not knowing how to be around them. Being social in general is hard for me so with some work I hope to change all this. But as I learned from my diet, missteps happen, sometimes traumatically so, but as I also learned those missteps can make progress feel so much better. So far 2 days down. Thanks and peace.