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Discussion in 'Ages 20-24' started by tripplethread, Nov 7, 2018.
Journal 1: First entry. I hope I never have to restart the counter.
Journal Entry 2: Not very difficult. Overall had an amazing day and everything seems to be going great. Hopefully this isn't placebo and the effects are real. Coming soon: Journal Entry 3!
Journal Entry 3: Getting pretty hard like there's a build-up that needs to be released. Benefits are clear thoughts and motivation to do work. Logically sound not to sacrifice one for the other.
Journal Entry 4: It's getting more and more difficult because I'm losing sight of why I'm doing this. Today I got my first headache in a very long time so that was weird. I'll keep going forward though because I have more energy during the day to complete tasks (though they're not getting completed). Any relatable advice is greatly appreciated!
Journal Entry 5: Fairly easy when you keep yourself occupied and you forget about. Still get depressed though. Heavy. At least this solves brain fog (does it really?) Will keep going though.
Journal Entry 6: Still going strong. Very difficult today because I have a lot of work I *don't* want to do. Usually I jerk off to avoid the work but I'm staying afloat somehow. Going to keep going as long as a month or so.
Edit: I feel like a normal person when I'm not jerking off constantly. Like I can think clearly, communicate clearly etc. I'm also working towards making my dreams achievements and today I took the first real step. Not masturbating might really be making all these differences.
Edit2: I've also noticed that it's easier to read sentence, both quicker and with more understanding, without losing my attention like before. My eyes to go back and forth like I had an attention disorder but now I'm good. I have a shit tonne of energy and I don't struggle with getting tired during the day anymore. This is weird.
Journal Entry 7: One week! I'm thinking about jerking off without watching porn. Not sure if that's wrong but I think it is.
I edged today then felt some weirdness in my head so I decided I might as well just finish it off so I failed on the 7th day. Longest streak = 7 days. My head feels woozy now. I'll start again now.
Edit 1: I definitely feel like a lot of my internal energy has been released. I've had a shit tonne of energy over the past few days but not anymore. I now understand what people like Steve Jobs were doing with the conservation of energy through celibacy.
Edit 2: To remind myself, I'll go ahead and write this down: it doesn't feel good after masturbating. You feel like everything is unstable, your emotions feel jittery, and you can't focus on finishing a task that takes even a few seconds longer than you want it to take. Your brain is mushy and you don't want to be a part of life like everyone. Hopefully this helps even when I'm on a long streak of not masturbating.
Edit 3: Also, everything seems to be a connection of just abstaining from masturbating, looking at images of instagram girls and imagining a lot, and just doing stuff. Not planning to do things, not imagining doing them. Just doing them then and there without any extra things in between.
Edit 4: Next goal: 3 months without masturbating, edging, or looking at girls on Instagram for a long time. Spend all that time doing things that matter in the long run (like everyone else is doing).
Journal Entry 1: 3 months - 1 days remaining. Today was relatively easy. Some urges but if I pushed myself hard enough to remember why I'm doing this then I can reason with it then join that with doing something else to distract my thoughts. If I spent too much time looking at a girl on Instagram I would just wake myself up and exit the tab. Not productive whatsoever. Hopefully will have the drive back tomorrow.
Journal Entry 2: E-A-S-Y P-E-A-S-Y
Journal 3: Forgot this one. Easy.
Journal 1: Just reset the counter. I didn't see the purpose of doing this anymore. Jerking off adds a feeling of emptiness in you but I can still work. And work in a calm mood so I can make this work. I've made it work before. Probably won't post again.