Hi there guys. First of all I have to say that I am not an English-speaker so I ask pardon if I misspell some words... (I am not that bad but still learning...) I am 23 years old, first watched porn accidentally when I was 8 but this still made a huge impact in my life. I started with this addiction of M ever since. I have to say that I enjoyed some periods of abstinence thanks to my extracurricular activities during my middle school and high school years. This periods of "abstinence" were not because I didn't want to do it, but because I didn't even think in the possibility of doing it. I was focused more in my tennis or soccer tournaments and practices and going out with friends than thinking about THAT... During my Senior year in high school I started to feel more and more that this bad habit of M was coming back and strongly. I could not escape: Friends sharing porn to me, I myself watching during my free time and eventually my lonely practice of M... Anyway, I got into a serious situation. I decided to give up my use of social media and I spent the minimum amount of time in the Internet in order to avoid the possible temptations. Doing this, it kind of reduced the frequency of M in my life but still I was not able to live more than 40 days without doing it. During this period of time (2012) I got my first wet dream ever! (and unfortunately my only one)... It was great because I could experience what normal men feel when they don't M or have S during certain amount of time!. This made me think that I could go through my vice of M. Unfortunately I haven't been able to run away from this vice... I have not be able to "survive" for more than a couple of weeks since 2013. Obviously I could no longer stay "Offline" and got back to my regular use of Internet and stuff because of so many reasons. This didn't help me at all because I got back to my P addiction too. Now I have a filter in every single device I use but still it is not a 100% safe... The images of all the bad things I have seen are stuck in my head! They come to my mind even when they shouldn't. I want to be able to control my mind and to live with peace, controlling myself and being able to have helpful relationships with women. Really, P has ruined the way I look at women (I see a cute girl and I can't stop ogling her!), and they way I see life sometimes. I have a dream in which I will overcome this and live with an improved self-esteem and happy. When I fall in the battle against this vice It makes me think if I ever will be able to get rid of this. I speak to anyone reading this, If you have a counsel, a word of encouragement or just a recommendation or comment... I really appreciate it. Thank you all for reading and let's do this!