I've really scared.

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  1. AngeZarate10

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    Can i cured if After 20 years of p. And i've used in the last time heels shoes near girls Photo for FAP?
    I closed with all by 12 days, but i'm really depressed and my only desire is die.
    Have i got changes that all back normal?
     
  2. scarecrow1

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    Wow. You really must be scared since you have not been able to type a coherent sentence.

    Before you “die” why don’t you take a less drastic action.

    Take a hammer and smash the living daylights out of your computer and phone.
     
  3. AngeZarate10

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    Sorry i'm italian.
    In the last time i've used heels shoes to fap near girls Photo.
     
  4. scarecrow1

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    Well if google translate is working then it means you have not actually watched porn but used a girl’s shoes for master bation.

    Well don’t freak out. It’s a somewhat weird thing to do for sure. If it bothers you that much throw away the shoes.
     
  5. AngeZarate10

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    in the last 3-4 years I have used women's shoes next to girls' photos a couple of times a week.
    together the videos logically.
    12 days I took everything out of the way, after I had a relapse.
     
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  7. Abetterbrain

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    I don’t really understand what you are trying to convey. You masturbate over women’s shoes?
     
  8. GaryMayor

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    Just start a new streak, but try to understand reasons of your relapse.
     
  9. AngeZarate10

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    Yes.
     
  10. AngeZarate10

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    [QUOTE = "GaryMayor, post: 2010632, membro: 233900"] Inizia una nuova serie, ma cerca di capire i motivi della tua ricaduta. [/ QUOTE]
    Now are 14 days that i NoFap.
    I had got a relapse
     
  11. Abetterbrain

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    Hmm is it a problem? How often do you do it? Personally if you had a GF and incorporated it in the bedroom l, that’s fine. We all have a kink.
     
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  12. AngeZarate10

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    Yes, i have.
    Now are 14 days that i don't FAP.
    In the last time i've used heels shoes for masturbate.
    After 20 years i've closed with porn, FAP, ecc..
    Now i dedicate only my GF.
    Only sometimes i've a flatline :-(
    Is It normal?
     
  13. determined_new_life

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    You do have a chance if going back to normal. I have been in a very bad place years ago but through exercise and meditation and nofap I have more of a normal life. Time, invest it wisely. When porn arises in your mind, ask the question, what else? What else could you be doing instead of porn.
     
  14. AngeZarate10

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    I'm done with porn, and various fetishes.
    they were destroying me and I wasn't realizing it.
    now I want to think only of my girlfriend.
     
  15. DormantWonders

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    Keep learning about NoFap, try to do positive things like said above, the gym, other hobbies and good habits that empower you. Fapping will only trick you, then drain you. depress you. Your depression will get better, almost go away if you stay away from porn. and as you go further more than 14 days, you will feel more balanced. Natural and loving. Your relationship with your girlfriend may get better too. Learn more, I do my best to not look at pics, of Any hot woman or whoever you are attracted to since it will trigger you to possibly look at porn. At least until you are far on a new path with no P, it takes time. Don't give up but, if you relapse it truly not the end of the world and don't die, or think of anything close to that. it's not that serious to take your Life. it's only a sex addiction that you Can stop and get under control but it takes time. and learning and constantly trying., doing. You have had 20 years of training your self to go to P, and that is deep. It will take time to change to evolve from the old you, old habits. This is no excuse to keep them up or to keep giving up, no, you have to change as best you can, If you can go 90 days, great if you can stop PMO forever Amazing! I wish I could. and I recommend it, but, it may take time.

    I have also been into P for over 20 years. I live with that regret, that shame that hell. and when I relapse i feel depression too. But, you have to push through it, learn and try to not lose it, meaning "don't want to die". that's not good. Come on man, there are worse things a human can be doing. But, its still bad and you have to try and accept you messed up or failed and learn for the failure to empower you to truly change, try again, in 1-2 days after you will get stronger. but don't forgive and forget to learn and apply what you learned, why did you give up. were you tiered, angry, lonely? were you running from another problem, something to escape from? could you have gone to bed, prayed, went outside, took a cold shower.? What can you do next time to stop from doing PMO. Use the lesson of what triggered you? Then think of why you want to stop. Why you Must change. and keep trying, doing. Learning, changing.

    .Give yourself time to heal, to learn new ways to deal with the reasons Why you even want to escape to P. how to channel that sexual energy into New positive drives, New outlets, goals, accomplishments. It's Energy. direct it into something worth it, valuable. P is shit. you know it. Learn more. You heve been into P for so long that now, you got into Kinky fetishes like the shoes or hell, you could next be wearing them and acting like a woman. P, will mess your head up. But, its only because "Normal" stimulation is old news and boring to you now. since you Over did it with P. But, its can get back to Normal, and "regular sex" that is truly amazing in it own essence, will stimulate you again.

    The reason we go to weird of "shameful" fetishes is that we need More, when we "had it all" meaning we have seen so much, various things that without P, we would never see. that the Key, SEE, we didn't really experience it in real Life. but through a screen a monitor, a phone. a fantasy and our brain thinks it real, its does not know the difference. between real or imagined experience. so our basic instincts for survival get all messed up. We think we had all these women when we didn't. and had all these sexual encounters but, we did, and didnt. meaning we did through fantasy, visualizing we didn and its all messed up. out of balance to what is Real. so, once you balance out, get away from the Overload of options, P, O, and get your mind back, then get your body balanced and chemical nature, you will need less kinky or weird stuff. you'll see it for what it is. BS, gross, or nasty shit that corrupts your mind. People doing crazy shit cuz, they are over sex crazy and need More.

    Basically, all chasing a high they will never get enough of. You addicted to stimulation. the High. It's just like a drug, and when its stops working. or is not enough we need more. the next kinky thing, or weird thing. that makes us feel naughty, dirty, or High again, it only gets deeper, and more crazy and gross and basically you lose a sense of decency, self-respect or respect for others, for the human body, for life, and there are so many more things to Life that this sex, shit, this addiction, its a waste. get addicted to Life, to bettering your self. go away from the darkness, challenge your self to truly be the person you want to be! Be easy on your self if you relapse, forgive but Don't forget. Don't get used to giving up, if you do you will never change and then you should be hard on your self but, never to the point where you want to die. No, you want to Live!

    So focus on Living, and is PMO living? is it really that good? the 1 hour it takes to find, all that searching for, creeping, hiding being all weird, and secret in your world of pleasure, for what? the high, the lame high for 7 seconds of O. then What? Hours, days of sadness self disappointment. depressions. Learn to Know its not worth it. try ? harder, Do, Change and never stop being better than the yesterday you. be the New You!
     
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  16. AngeZarate10

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    I have already made my decision.
    all this shit was ruining my life and making me an idiot.
    I want to live without anxiety and strange thoughts in my head.
     
  17. DormantWonders

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    That’s is Good! You have made the decision That is the most important thing. And thank God you found the NoFap community! It’s great to know you are not alone. So many people will never try to stop and live with anxiety and strange deranged low thoughts and actions for their whole life, until they die, full of regrets.

    So many men didn’t have the knowledge we can find here. The support, so you are doing the right thing. Making powerful moves that will help you Now and in your future.

    I have been doing Nofap for 2-3 years now and I have not been great, I have had relapses and still do unfortunately But, I have stopped my old habits.

    For most of my life (i am 42 years of age) since I was 12, I watched it. Was hooked. Too many years. I watch P every day and PMO everyday, 1-2 times. Now, today I am happy to say it’s not a daily thing. The longest I went was 46 days no P.

    Lately it’s been 14 days. And it hurts. But i have progressed and changed. You can too!
    Give it up! I’m on day 7 today and plan to go 90. I have tried so many times and this is it, I hope and pray. I know it’s never worth it to go back never worth it. I make private recordings of my self talking to myself and giving advice.

    I record after I relapse or while I’m doing good. When times are hard, I watch or listen to the recordings. To help support me. My true self telling me to not hurt me. Be strong! You will change! I believe in you! Ciao!
     
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  18. AngeZarate10

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    Now are 20 days, and it's very amazing think a real girl, her butt, face, tits, no only feet.. and excite myself
     
  19. DormantWonders

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    Awesome! The woman is an amazing beautiful creation. Watching P makes us forget the simple, parts of the body that are sexy, even the feel of touch. Taking things slow and sensual. We lose feeling and want to rush into hardcore behavior. Lusting to finish or like a wolf. When balanced and on NoFap, simple things like her movements, her eyes, soft skin, not even sex, simple gestures is attractive. Real life is better than any P. Happy that you are on day 20! That’s amazing! I look up to you!
     
  20. DormantWonders

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    I don’t know if you can understand english, when spoken? This guy Gabe speaks English but all of his motivational videos on YouTube help me. He is the best. Wise. He has been on 1year or more long streaks and he has thousands of videos to help you during and time.

     
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