Its time to be happy again

Well it's kinda weird since I am already in Day 11 but anyways I decided to change myself and see the ultimate truth of life which is as a Christian , my ultimate truth should be God and a fulfilling with a purpose life.

Being filled with life and happiness every day feels like Heaven itself already
In my case , the thing in which that doesn't help me change my life to being happy before , is my mind in which i always seem to overworry in things that i can't seem to change or do. However When I lessen my worries or thinking on my mind, life becomes much more clear, filled my mind and spirit with the big and important things.​

This time , I won't pressure myself , I won't think that "I can never catch up or measure to this person." and all negative feelings , Its time to be happy again.

 

Day 14 , I starting to get a little better at living life the way I want it , live every day fulfillingly even if there's some bad moment/things, also I am planning to go cold turkey as holding back my urge seems to be will be very hard so I devised a plan to reduce my urge which is , to fap to music in the first week(yes music) and seeing porn but no fapping in the 2nd week, I hope this will help me reduce my urge.

 

Ok , I'll do as you say , anyways I am actually getting used to fapping with nothing but my urge is still there so it'll become pretty dangerous . I am having a really hard time too probably because of my childhood being exposed already to p. which is not very good but earlier I attented church and I never felt so good in a while though after getting home , I saw some semi - p. accidentally and also yeah fapped to it so now I have to go back to the beginning kinda sad actually but I really need to find help in the Lord which is loving Him till my urge to do it and while demons are telling me to do it are completely disappeared.

 

Thank you guy for the much help you given me , also I am kinda seeing a new side of life when going for a walk in nature it gives me such inner peace that even my most negative condition can probably smile when I go out and see the sun , feel the wind and the nature work of God . Life is too interesting to cage it in to a useless and pathetic pleasure when doing PMO , so yeah even though I know the answer , the only thing missing is discipline and inner peace of fulfilling days.

 

Day 3 , yeaa... I am starting to get the hang of it , the feeling of warmth of God though I really need to reduce my masturbation , though I can masturbate without P. however it's not like my health will not change anything but I do know that the more I let Jesus Christ in me , it will come naturally . Hopefully I will understand my limits and rely on God more than my own strength.