IT GETS BETTER. After constant failures, success at last - 65 days

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by ToInfinityAndBeyond, Jun 2, 2018.

  1. ToInfinityAndBeyond

    ToInfinityAndBeyond Fapstronaut

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    Since puberty at age 12, I looked at porn and jacked off almost every single day until March 29 of this year. My entire adult life has included porn every day, at some points nothing but video games, porn and sleep. For many of those years the porn I chose was extreme and violent. About two years ago, I even lost the shame I felt about porn addiction. It felt like porn was part of me and that I would be mentally helpless without it.

    Even when I climbed up out of vicious cycles of anxiety and started working on life goals, PMO would be waiting for me, promising quick and easy happiness. I failed on NoFap countless times. I generally would reach ~10 days before I was simply obsessed with sex and couldn't think about anything else. My sexual obsessions would disturb me and I would use PMO to make them go away. I would abandon NoFap for several years and then come back.

    Many users have commented that it is easier to stop with a change of environment. This has been key for me. I was able to stop for almost a month when I changed living environments in 2016, but eventually relapsed and was no longer able to maintain the willpower to return to NoFap. I returned to PMO every day until March 2018.

    No matter how many times you fall down, get up again.

    I am now receiving the support of a loving partner who understands that porn made me a pervert and is willing to meet my needs. I again moved into a completely new location. I keep myself moving and focusing on accomplishments and new goals. I felt the "superpowers" in 2014 and 2016 but not this time. This time it has been more like a steady gain in confidence as I realize that I have the willpower to stop PMO forever.

    I almost relapsed while on a trip to Russia, because I was extremely bored and drank some alcohol out of boredom -- drunkenness seems to make me hunger for porn very quickly. I lay in bed, thoughtlessly tried to pull up my favorite site on my phone, and was surprised to discover that Russia blocks porn sites. I googled it and discovered that their government's Internet agency tells users to "go outside and meet people." I was so surprised that the Russian government was making fun of my porn addiction that I actually felt ashamed and lost interest in porn.

    Thanks in part to Mr. Putin making me do a double-take during that moment of weakness, and otherwise thanks to the daily support of my beautiful girlfriend, I have not looked at any porn since March 29. My sexual obsessions come and go. Each time they go away I feel better and more confident.
     
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  2. 0Cool0

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    Great achievement my brother ! Continue the good work and see the best results by yourself.May God bless you !
    Thumbs Up for Russian Government . Hope that all other countries' gov and people ( more important) will understand the harmful results of porn and soon they will also ban it. I have seen most of the people taking the side of the porn industry and consider them as completely normal but they didn't see the dark side of the porn and its harmful effects.

    Good luck Brother :)
     
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  3. Russia really ban porn sites? damm i wish my country do the same:(
     
  4. halkat

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    From your post I understand that you have a beautiful GF and she is the only reason that you obstain from porn till now. You should be taking good care of her and should be putting extra effort to deepen relationship and if any case this doesn't happen and after some tine she leaves you then rest of your life you will be hooked to porn so value her
     
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  5. halkat

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    How about filtering your thoughts and banning harmful thoughts entering your brain. Can you do that
     
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  6. 0Cool0

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    Brother , Let's not think only about ourselves. Think about all the other people suffering from the same. Think about children who fall in the clutches of porn industry at a very young age.
     
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  7. Archangel 77

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    Yeah, this stood out to me too. I’m glad you’ve found someone that is supportive and that you’re sharing your struggles. However, as a recovering codependent, please be sure you’re doing this for yourself and understand the difference of interdependence in a relationship. It’s so easy for addicts to lose boundaries in intimate relationships. I speak from my own personal experience. I hope your relationship countinues to grow and be healthy and loving.
     
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  8. rooftop

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    fuuuck me , Im not a lover of Russia but in that aspect they FINESSED. If it comes the day that I know I cant quit PMO ill emigrate to RUssia haha
     
  9. rooftop

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    In progressive Europe/USA we motivate to use them LOL

    The ultimate degradation of the Western World! I really dont respect Russia as a country but the matrix of the sexual-progressive ideology (serving money, it has nothing to do with freedom) really its as bad as the worst totalirism any country might have.
     
  10. halkat

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    You dont have the capacity to control your urges how can you even think of thinking others? It needs a pure mind not a PMO mind
     
  11. 0Cool0

    0Cool0 Fapstronaut

    Everybody is not exceptionally intelligent like you.We can't think and act like you. Try to cut down the criticism in your posts, It does not look nice. We all are here to motivate each other , to support each other, to move on. Not to fight or start debate without any hardcore reason on this platform.

    By the way, I have the capacity to control urges and I surely have a pure mind. Having or not having PMO in mind is not the correct explaination of a pure mind.
     
  12. ToInfinityAndBeyond

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    Thanks everyone for your replies, I'm sorry to bump this thread a little late. I wanted to highlight this reply in particular:
    You're very right. My girlfriend watches porn maybe once a week and she tries to send me videos sometimes. It's only around last week when I posted this thread that I realized I need to set boundaries with her, so that she can help me achieve my goals.

    For me, porn led to OCD, disturbing thoughts, and bad performance in bed. I am very happy to say that although these thoughts and problems haven't gone away entirely, they have lessened with every week without porn. My girlfriend doesn't seem to have these bad effects, but I hope we can support each other and eventually free both of us from porn permanently.
     
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  13. All_384

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    Inspiring my friend & Thankyou for your story:)
     

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